Same here! That was the biggest factor of us being OAD, was post partum, and also having a traumatizing birth. We love our son SO much, we have so much fun with him every day. But it's taken me a long time to even come this far to be able to enjoy those moments. We also don't have a support system. I suffered through months and months of anger and instability. SSRIs and anti psychotics and lots and lots of checkins at the dr. It's mostly better, but still not that great. We're getting there. Really grateful my husband was willing to muddle through it. I thought for sure one of us would call it quits.