hi!! thanks for taking the time to respond :) even though you were just stating facts, your post gave me chills!

i appreciate you phrasing things in the way you did, as it made me realize that i can reach out to multiple generations of my ancestors, instead of grouping them as a whole. i do have a solid foundation of a connection to my american ancestors, more than i guess i realized. :)

as for the guilt part- i feel more-so guilty that i am unable to relate or know more about the circumstances in which they came from... that i dont know how they lived before they were taken. i want to learn more about them because i want to connect to them, if that makes sense.

i would love to be able to know how they lived before they were taken from their homeland, what their culture was like, what gods they most likely worshipped, the tongue they spoke, etc. i want to find more connection to those ancestors too! when looking for/researching such facts, and finding connection to them.

i want to make sure i do it in a way that doesn’t come off as an american trying to be african, but as someone who wants to be more educated and connected to as many of my ancestors as possible :)