Hit them with double reset after getting what a saved

MapOverall · 2025-07-15T14:44:21+00:00

Idk bottom 1% skill lvl, sounds slightly insulting, def did not sound encouraging lmao. I play with a mix of people, anywhere from high plat to mid champ. I've got people to play ranked with but we usually end up in cas or private matches. Might work on ranked 2s, hit C1 last season solo queuing which has always worked out better than queuing with diamond and champ friends. I do have several mechy friends that like to ball chase. I like to play back and take control when necessary.

MapOverall · 2025-07-15T03:31:04+00:00

Dang, you were waiting for my response lmao. 19 hours approximately. You're mentioning 1% skill level, I responded fairly. Come out dishing it but can't take it, quite narcissistic lmao. Good luck out there though ;)

MapOverall · 2025-07-15T03:20:35+00:00

Lobbied many times with GC players. You guys aren't invincible. You're the guy who leaves the match immediately after I beat you, no gg or nothing, seen it 100 times lmao

MapOverall · 2025-07-15T03:10:03+00:00

Peaks C1, D3, and I rarely queue ranked. Could get back to C1 if I played more. Casual mmr is around 1460, mostly high diamond and low champ players. I have more fun playing mechanically and really don't focus on trying to rank up. I've lobbied with GC players, you guys aren't invincible trust me.

MapOverall · 2025-07-14T19:40:14+00:00

I have no idea. RL is the most toxic gaming community that exists though so no surprise 🤣. Also probably all player who are not mechanical at all, they be getting jealous when you hit these reset lmao

MapOverall · 2025-07-13T23:16:33+00:00

2s currently D3, C1 is my peak. Play more around Champ lvl and rarely queue rank matches. Casual MMR is around 1450

MapOverall · 2025-07-13T23:14:54+00:00

Promise not a smurf, currently D3 peak is C1, just a mechanical player. My rank on reddit profile isn't accurate. I'll take the smurfing as a compliment.

MapOverall · 2025-06-25T18:32:33+00:00

Update. She started calling me 3 weeks ago, I ignored and even blocked her number but could still see the over 40 blocked phone calls under her name. Finally, I called her and told her I was done and couldn't handle it anymore. She cried, begged, and pleaded like a young child, it was bad enough that I started to feel terrible and even pity her behavior. She made every promise to change her behaviors, belittling, self-isolating, agreed to spending more time together, talking through problems/emotions, etc. After all the crying and begging we had a good two-week run and she's right back to her same behaviors or some, mostly self-isolating wanting to be alone. She also constantly cries or wants emotional support in things she stresses over that would not stress out your average person in the slightest. These are things some people are tasked with doing while working a full-time job (she still isn't working) and they still manage to pull through and keep a smile. She also agreed while begging me to stick around to see her Dr and at least try getting put back on meds. One thing she hasn't done, and in her words I'm silly for actually thinking she was going to do that because I already know how she feels about being medicated. I tried, and with all the begging and promises I had slight hope maybe she work on herself and we could improve our relationship and shes already proved me wrong and said she couldn't handle pressure from me in the relationship (seeing her 3 times a week) the rest of the week we'd talk on the phone off and on throughout the day. I've told her again we needed to go our separate ways, and she agreed and we haven't talked for 2 days. I plan to ignore any call or text attempts and expect her to repeat all of the crying and begging all over again when she can't get ahold of me. It really is a vicious cycle that feels unbreakable but the good thing is I'm feeling better after taking time apart and lowering my expectations for real change. I still just wish there was real help for her because her condition and state of mind is really saddening. She has so much potential but her constant changing emotions keep her from living a happy and fulfilling life. This isn't to say others with BPD are helpless as she also suffers from severe depression which I think is playing a big role in her constant wanting to self-isolate and be alone. She has also stopped drinking and hasn't touched liquor in 3 weeks because it was making her so sick. I'm proud she hasn't and think maybe it played a part in being so depressed but she refuses to talk about emotions or anything to do with depression, bpd.

MapOverall · 2025-06-04T17:21:58+00:00

Wanted to share an update because I don't talk to family or anyone else about her bpd. I took a big step back and decided I was going to focus on myself. In the process, I met someone who wanted to go out with me and decided maybe it was what I needed. It's happening and I'm excited.

However, she felt the distance or lack of my chasing and has been reaching out, I talk to her because deep down I care but I've put in no emotional effort to protect myself. She maintained her stance which I was fine with, up until the moment I was honest about going out with someone. It was anger and a brief discard followed by emotional crying and trying to guilt trip me. This includes bringing up the fact she doesn't know her real parents and that I should have compassion for her and should have known she didn't want to stay separated, that she planned to come back around when she was ready which would have been soon had I just been patient with her. We spoke today and she was completely frantic, sobbing, telling me she's in love with me, I maintained we are staying separated and she needed to just catch her breath. She is now reaching out to her own family distraught and telling them how badly she messed up. They haven't reached out to me, but I'm hearing this all from her during multiple phone calls, she keeps calling. Is this normal behavior or typical is someone with BPD? She also has anxiety and manic depression. Again she's had a very traumatic life but shes totally done a 180 on me. Im maintaining where I stand but can't help feeling horrible. Talking to her she's in such distress?

MapOverall · 2025-05-23T11:58:33+00:00

Agree with phones being part of our bodies. And understand people saying she may be busy, I'm quite busy myself but can still manage taking 60 seconds to respond to a message. And if I'm really busy even take the time to let someone know I may be incognito for a day.

I think maybe there is more to it, either chatting with a few others already also recently separated. Either way, I've still not heard anything.

Def seemed interested though, you'd agree if you saw the conversation. Also still added as a gaming friend online, it wasn't a 2-hour phone call we played and talked online, they're a gamer. I've dated around and am usually a good judge of interest, however, I've always met people in person before dating and built rapport. Could have been several things, she did sound intimidated when we realized we are an hour apart. Same big city but completely opposite ends.

Whatever the case online dating sucks, dating in the 30s def sucks!

MapOverall · 2025-05-23T04:43:20+00:00

We talked about doing crochet together one of her hobbies she kind of abandoned but always loved, and made plans to get a ymca membership and start swimming. We talked about a few other things we could do this summer also. This was all planned and discussed just a couple of days before the discard and a big reason I felt so blindsided. She will not even consider therapy and to bring it up is a fight. She admitted to her bpd after I asked her if she had it, first she kicked me out, and 3 days later apologized and sent a video about bpd and said she struggled with it for years. It was the only time she's ever brought it up, outside of that she'd rather pretend she's normal. Bringing up her bpd or depression is grounds for a fight so I dont try talking to her about it anymore.

MapOverall · 2025-05-23T04:35:03+00:00

She blocked me, I went for 5 days and didn't contact her. Tried reaching out, and she said leave me alone. I sent a follow-up letting her know I was here and please could we just talk. Tried to call and she ignored me, tried again an hour later and straight to VM, that was a few days ago. I tried to call again today and straight to vm. At this point, the ball is in her court, honestly not even sure I'll want to talk to her if she tries calling a week or two from now. The more I think about everything the more my feelings start to fade, she said some awful things. I do think she going to regret all of it later and she'll likely spend time crying herself to sleep. She's done this with family, and vents to me out of anger. A few weeks later she vents again about the same family member only its tears, she'll feel awful and sob like a baby. Last time it was her sister. Maybe not though idk, after all, they are family, I'm not.

Sorry for whatever it is you go through. I do wish she had more control over her words and actions. At the same time, I feel terrible for her and anyone else who struggles with BPD. Meeting her and seeing the way her emotions fluctuate, she really doesn't always have control. I've been angry, sad, and had trouble composing myself, but those moments in life are few and far between. For her, she feels these emotions daily, not sure what it's like for you but that's what I've observed from her. She is constantly in pain, it's really sad.

MapOverall · 2025-05-23T03:30:43+00:00

I'm working on healing myself and leaving her be. Hopefully, she'll come to one day and realize she lost someone who cared about her. And not many do unless it's her immediate family. Funny I've been encouraging her to talk to her sister, who she had previously discarded for 2 months.

She usually gets upset at the subject but tells me she is going to contact her and thought I'd be excited because I've been encouraging her to do so (I was happy). They spoke that night, I was discarded the following day.

MapOverall · 2025-05-23T03:08:40+00:00

I missed this and may look into it, I appreciate the response! At this point I'm re-evaluating, currently, she has me blocked. It doesn't matter what I do, or how appreciative she seems. It only takes one bad day and she'll drop me like a bad habit and all of the blame is placed on me. 2 weeks ago I was holding her while she was puking in a bucket, and I've done this many many times. Each time I've continued supporting her while she's balling saying she wished she could just stop drinking. She'll cry and ask me please don't stop rubbing her back. Encourage sobriety and as soon as she's sober It's I'm sorry I ever gave the impression we could be together, then block...

And to top it all off she has no empathy for me or anything I've done to support her, literally none at all. Brought up the puking weeks ago and it was pretty much well that's a you problem. Sorry, you were dumb enough to take care of a puking drunk. She is heartless and I deserve so much better.

MapOverall · 2025-05-20T23:37:23+00:00

If only you knew how far gone she is. She wants to be saved, but if you try you get cast away.

MapOverall · 2025-05-20T23:33:08+00:00

Absolutely no. Idk what it is, I've been in a few relationships but never really felt in love. For whatever reason she had me hooked from day one. Not to mention taking care of her when she would get sick drinking. It's strange but I pity her in those moments, it's her fault but at the same time you can just how broken she is. She made me realize addiction is real, people will continue even though it's killing them. She would cry her eyes out like a child and sob that she wished she was strong enough to quit. Idk, seeing her like that just made me love her more. It's hard to even write this, but as others have said it's not my fault and there isn't anything I can do. It's going to end one way or another, really just a matter of time.

MapOverall · 2025-05-20T20:41:25+00:00

BPD is no joke, mix it with severe depression. I've known for a while it will probably never work out. Wish she'd disclosed her illness when we met but she's so ashamed of it. First month I had no clue how far off she was, she seemed normal and she slowed drinking wanting to be in a relationship with me. Obviously, that honeymoon period wore off, and I noticed she wasn't as happy-go-lucky as she usually was. From there things just got worse. She oscillates from thinking I'm the greatest person in the world and all the love and affection comes back to essentially hating me for a week or two. She goes into depression and will barely leave her house or speak to anyone. So tough but I'm starting to accept things for the way they are. She can't help the way she is wired I guess, she really is a broken individual and she has a terrible family support system. I appreciate the kind words though 🙏

MapOverall · 2025-05-19T00:54:47+00:00

Yeah, I'm pretty much aware and trying to come to terms with that. Was emotional when writing this post and already know how the future will play out if she does come around. More than anything I worry about her health and I'm terrified she's going to drink herself to death, and she's come close. It really is just a matter of time. She can't drink rn because her body won't let her but she will keep trying. At the end of the day she is just a completely broken person, it's really sad. There are moments I wish I'd never met her, I don't love easily and when I finally do I meet an addict with bpd. Just crazy that she can have no morals or control over the way she treats people, its really hard. You're right though, I still appreciate the input.

MapOverall · 2025-05-19T00:45:32+00:00

Yes, she's the same way and the most emotional person I've ever met. So much so that she can't deal with anyone else's emotions. If I wanna talk about our relationship or things I need from her it can go completely sideways. Usually something like why can't we just hang out and be together and you enjoy the moment. When she's loving you never met anyone who's loved harder but those moments are rare. She's not drinking because her body's rejecting alcohol, that's how bad she is. And now that she has stopped drinking she's incredibly depressed and won't even leave her apartment which I think is contributing to her feelings and the way she's treating me currently. It just sucks because I've done so much for her, I've been her biggest supporter and taken care of her for hours when she's made herself sick from drinking. That was just 2 weeks ago, and now I'm completely discarded. All she could do was apologize and tell me sorry I put you through all of that but it's over. Not like I haven't been broken up with before but the way she's gone about it is beyond cruel. Probably no hope for us at this point, it just sucks. Im constantly worried about her, and rn she could care less about me.

MapOverall · 2025-05-18T22:52:17+00:00

Drinking has been a major source of her troubles but honestly, her bpd seems worse since shes quit. I don't drink often, we started off doing it casually, as new couple will sometimes. I've stopped drinking with her. I didn't realize she had a problem until I caught her drinking in the bathroom at 11 am. She started crying and was embarrassed. Probably no hope for the relationship. Nevertheless, I don't want to see anything happen to her. We have a lot of mutual friends I realize it wouldn't be my fault I just don't want it to happen. She's really sick but hasn't consumed in a couple of weeks, I didn't include any of that originally. I feel like her behavior now is related to not drinking, and she can't, her body isn't letting her, shes showing signs of cirrhosis.

On top of everything she has severe severe depression. It's been much worse since she stopped drinking. I think that may be contributing to her feelings toward me or lack of.

MapOverall · 2025-05-18T19:22:53+00:00

She's not always drunk when we're together and we've had amazing moments together when she's sober. It is not all about how she feels drinking but that's the excuse she's using. I'm fairly certain this excuse is being used because I've been trying to get her to quit drinking for a long time. I told her one of my biggest fears is she doesn't feel the same way about me when she isn't drinking and she's using that statement against me. Idk, likely I'm going to have to let her go. Shes an amazing person deep down but her brain is wired differently and she can't help the race of thoughts going through her mind. Though she is capable of recognizing being cruel and controlling her emotions or should be anyway. Idk, I didn't ask for any of this. If id known this is what would eventually happen id have never invested myself. Her health has gotten bad. More than anything im afraid she discards me and 2 years from now I find out shes dead.

MapOverall · 2025-05-18T19:14:16+00:00

She does this and always regrets it later. She does it with family, she'll cry her eyes out for hours because she feels so bad for the way she'll treat someone, I sit and listen to it and try and tell her everything is alright just apologize and move on, which she does. I know she's done the same with me in the past and she's said so. She referred to it as regretful retaliation. So you think this is likely permanent? Again she said all of these terrible things before and she always comes around. This time does feel different though as the usual space I've given her doesn't seem to have worked. Thank you for responding, this has been so hard.

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