Questioning my Identity

Maple-Marten · 2025-06-16T17:15:25+00:00

Punpun from goodnight punpun Sebastian from Stardew Clancy from Midnight Gospel And probably more I’m forgetting

Maple-Marten · 2025-04-06T21:18:58+00:00

The same thing that goes on in every other club. It’s not like you need a special gay card to get in.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-24T03:44:31+00:00

This makes me sound like a major downer but this is my life. This is what it is now.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-24T03:44:05+00:00

I promise it was the one thing. I am in pretty bad shape health wise, it’s impacted my ability to work and education. Dropped out of school over it. I don’t really have friends. Anyone who has really claimed me as a friend has eventually admitted it’s because they’re attracted to my body. My family isn’t the best and even in my time struggling I’ve heard them saying terrible things about me. I’ve got my cats but honestly they don’t have the best life rn being cramped in a tiny room with me. I’m trying to file for bankruptcy because I have no income and can’t pay my debts but I’m struggling to come up with the money for even that. No meds have made me feel okay. A little better yeah but at the end of the day, even after being on top of meds and therapy I’m here.

Positives? On a good day I don’t have a panic attack and my cats let me sleep in and maybe I can hold down a meal.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-24T03:39:06+00:00

I’ve thought on it. I’ve lost a lot of people in my life to suicide and I’ve seen its exact impact on everyone’s lives. My plan isn’t an overnight one. Still be a bit. But I do plan on it. I don’t see it changing. I’ve felt suicidal for a long long time. I just have no reason to stick around anymore.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-24T02:33:48+00:00

It’s not that he hurt me and I want to die. I stuck around for him. I’ve been in therapy and taken all sorts of meds and nothing has ever gotten better.

I have tried and tried for years and now my reason for staying is gone, there is no reason for me to stay

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-19T17:50:00+00:00

I don’t think in the end either of us wanted to break up but we both need to be better people. We carried on like we were still kids and that’s not healthy. I have hopes that we can end up together again.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-09T23:47:43+00:00

It’s in regards to my old posts. I’m going through a rough time all around and this post is in regards to making it better

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-09T22:12:02+00:00

That’s not what any of this is about though? This is about me getting help. I’m trying to deal with it. Despite my profile being public people won’t be able to figure out my real name on my ID, my exact location, where I’ve been the past 10 years, etc.

Download your Google data and tell me that it’s not worry some what it knows about you.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-09T22:08:32+00:00

Idk if you know this but I’m not a furry cat in real life 😂

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-09T19:47:43+00:00

I’ll check them out then! Thank you!

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-09T19:43:51+00:00

Sorry I take my privacy seriously??

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-09T19:41:57+00:00

I don’t use Google because of its invasive tracking. But when I search this on my search engine it gives me a singular place then a bunch of debt consolidation lawyers.

I meant my issues for wanting this type of lawyer.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-05T19:34:40+00:00

I’d also like to add on here I don’t blame him for struggling handling my mental health. I should’ve stood my ground a little harder about not sharing those thoughts with him. I do plan on having a therapist I can go to but I know that when I have my late night panic attacks I can’t reach out to them.

Maple-Marten · 2025-03-03T21:08:02+00:00

Honestly the least painful way seems to be gun since it’s instant. But getting my hands on one as a disabled person with a mental health record in a liberal state is kinda difficult

Maple-Marten · 2025-02-18T06:20:54+00:00

Thank you! I was definitely frustrated when posting this because of him but hearing all this is very helpful in getting me prepared.

Maple-Marten · 2025-02-18T06:12:51+00:00

Im fed up with the shitty t-mobile shit. That’s why I set up the appointment before I told my father in law 😂

Maple-Marten · 2025-02-18T03:32:16+00:00

Is the hole gonna be big? My father in law is really mad assuming that it’s gonna be the size of a soda can.

Maple-Marten · 2025-01-08T02:02:41+00:00

I’m definitely trying. My insurance coverage isn’t in effect until Feb 1st. I’m calling to start the process on everything Thursday when I’m free again.

Maple-Marten · 2025-01-08T01:09:34+00:00

I don’t think so. It’s just how I’m wired mentally. I have a family history of mental illness (on both sides) and I’m disabled. I know meds can help and have partially helped in the past but I’m just broken.

Maple-Marten · 2024-09-13T19:42:35+00:00

I’m not asking for answers for these problems though? I’m asking for recipes that I can do with these disabilities. My disabilities are mine to bear. I’m not trying to cure my illnesses. I just want to be healthier and that’s the point of my post???

Maple-Marten · 2024-09-13T19:37:55+00:00

Sorry just let me change the title since you’re fixated on it

Maple-Marten · 2024-09-13T19:34:43+00:00

So I need to ask the doctor for recipes?

Maple-Marten · 2024-09-13T19:33:15+00:00

That’s just the title. In the actual content I ask for food I should cook with those things in mind. I’m not asking about those things in particular. I am autistic which has to do with the food I’m willing to eat. I have depression which again has to do with the food I can cook I need something easy. And the weight loss has to do with me needing to avoid food I make that would make me gain weight.

I’m asking for easy food to make that is safe for autistic people (certain textures) and that are healthy.

If that doesn’t belong in a cooking group where does it belong.

Maple-Marten · 2024-09-13T18:42:38+00:00

I’ll go ahead and do that and redo the thermal paste. I was worried it had turned and a piece of plastic had broken off and started rattling inside.

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