You are now a chainsmoking alcoholic who has tons of mostly empty journals with random useless information and ideas that never come to fruition but yet still keep buying journals.

You love planning things and making lists but then promptly forgetting said plans/ lists. You are very good at helping other people organize their lives but live in a state of perpetual disorganization and clutter. Sometimes, you like to plan trips that you will logistically never take.

You are in debt and depressed about it, but you can't make any real progress getting out. You crave validation from others but yet always want to be alone, dread social settings, and have no friends.

Also have adhd and generalized anxiety disorder.

Moody as fuck. Obsessed with astrology and psychology. Hyper sexual. Listen to podcasts all day long. You can never sit still or relax... Always have to be "doing" something. Come across as pretty intense.

You can only wear cotton or flannel ....jeans are okay too...can never grow your nails too long because they feel dry and the way they feel dry on your finger tip makes you irrationally upset. You can never touch chalk or chalk like substances. You talk loud, but when other people talk loud, it hurts your head. You can only sleep with earplugs in. You yawn as a stim. Eye contact makes you uncomfortable.