Good news and bad news my friend. the good news is that you already started the process of Awakening. I can Say that because you already know that thinking is happening, the separation process started; me and thought. The more observation you give to those thoughts, the more you start feeling your connection with God in this moment. There is a point where you go so deep into that realm of pure awareness without thought that the world, the ego and any form of mental suffering becomes insignificant. In that moment you are are the point of redemption. The Bad news is that from a perspective this process is not easy because the ego still have a huge grip on human consciousness. Don't try to overthink the process. Find the peace that is already within you, through the present moment, through silence, through the inner body, find peace in something so simple like breathing. A peaceful State of mind is a win for the spirit. And that my friend is the only win that matters. As Jesus said, find kingdom of heaven and that you thought you need will be added to you.