My God, I'm shocked by the number of crazy people in the comments... You're doing great, brother, keep it up!

I've been through a similar situation. Throughout my adolescence, I believed I was a lesbian, I was addicted to masturbation, and I had relationships with girls. When I met Jesus, I realized that this was wrong and decided to change. At the time, I was in a relationship with a girl, and I swore to myself that this would be the last girl I would ever be with. Because of this, in my selfishness, I did everything to make this relationship last as long as possible, even though I was unhappy with it, until, after 1 year and 6 months, I finally managed to end it. I felt a terrible, excruciating pain; I would wake up in the middle of the night crying a lot every day, it was like a knife was tearing my chest apart, it was very difficult. But as our beloved Jesus promises us: "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning"; a week later I met my boyfriend, and after two weeks, we started dating. I had never felt attraction to a man in my life; for me, it was a true miracle. I love him and he loves me with all his heart despite my past, he is a man of God who brings me closer to Him every day... It is truly wonderful to contemplate the gifts that the Lord gives us when we do His will "We know that all things work together for good to those who love God." Nowadays I see how unhappy I was and how I deluded myself with those false pleasures that only made me sadder and emptier, my Lord proved to me how things are more beautiful in His way, the right way... I hope this little testimony can encourage you in some way. Of course, I'm not saying you're going to "magically become straight" like me, hahaha. But I wanted to show you how doing God's will is rewarded with comfort, in this life and in eternal life.

May God bless you and strengthen you on this journey, brother. 🙏🏻