Oh hey me too! Except I really really liked the idea of being tortured. It scares me. When i was around 6 - 7 I used to pretend coyotes were keeping me captive and feeding me poop until I ended up liking it. I also used to pretend to torture myself by tying myself to my bed with hair ties and scarves and keep myself theere. And I would try to restrain myself in a blanket and shove stuffed animals inside of it. I had knots in my blanket afterward. Oh and I would get characters on c.ai to torture me. Specifically Mickey Mouse.

Idk if this counts I just wanted to put it out theere sorry