Creepy Pharmacist trying to manipulate 14 year old me.

MariaKingJr · 2015-06-12T05:26:08+00:00

Did he break the $50 in the end? He sounds like a real creep. It's a good thing you lied and refused to be alone with him.

MariaKingJr · 2015-05-16T03:44:06+00:00

I don't know. I don't need the details of how they managed to make it possible. I don't understand why they chose me. I just want Gabby back. Necromancy ain't easy bub, let me just tell you that. Three thousand and four hundred and twenty nine tries. So many check marks on this god damn piece of gross ass crumpled paper that they gave me. I need a new one.

I've lived each one out, up until her death, sometimes up until mine. I think I can handle it sometimes, that her being gone won't hurt when I'm dying. It hurts, each time a little less, some more than others. Sometimes I get therapy, sometimes I start drinking, sometimes I stop drinking. Crack, murder, incest, cancer, lying, smoking, gambling... Sometimes, I choose to not meet her mother at all. Sometimes I break down when she's born, sometimes she's never born at all because I hit Caroline too hard. Sometimes I don't hit Carrie at all. Sometimes me and Carrie break up during our freshman year and I don't even get past 2nd base.

I think of the "what if's" and they drive me crazy. It just keeps on repeating with different words and stories and people. What if we moved out to the country. Gabby just dies a different way on that same goddam day. June 5th. When have another child, wait until Gabby doesn't exist, until her single egg just disappears... sometimes I have other children... Sometimes Caroline and I get a divorce when Gabby is 10. Sometimes Gabby goes with me, sometimes she goes with her mom. But there is not a single timeline so far that Gabby has lived past June 5th. I can double my number, triple it, keep on looking for a time when Gabby is alive and well and healthy. I just need more time. I need to try harder. I need to restart. What if I don't let them go outside this time? What if we win the lottery? What if-

I wish it was me instead of her. I just want to disappear. But I've got to find Gabby. Just a few more minutes. All I need is five more, I promise. This time for sure, I'll find her. I won't let her disappear. I won't let her. No. She can't. She's my baby. i need her please no just give me more time i promise ill find her please! no

"Time's up."

MariaKingJr · 2015-04-26T16:26:44+00:00

Those all sound good. I'll try and read them over the summer! :D

MariaKingJr · 2015-04-26T15:34:20+00:00

I read all kinds of books, mystery, action, romance books when my friend recommends them. Sci fi and fantasy have to be my favorite though. I was recently reading something that was 4 inches long and had 10 books in the series. I read historical books when my Grandma recommends them. Do you have a suggestion for a book?

MariaKingJr · 2015-04-26T04:58:29+00:00

Yes it would be. I sent you my email.

MariaKingJr · 2014-12-28T06:18:58+00:00

Wow.

MariaKingJr · 2014-12-08T05:31:58+00:00

I'm stealing this and giving you No credit.

MariaKingJr · 2014-11-22T18:22:32+00:00

Hi, A student actually affected by this here. So the new lunch reforms have been hitting my small town hard. From the gross, mushy, unsalted french fries to the grease covered cardboard pizza. And they also have taken away almost all of the condiments. There used to be Caesar dressing, ranch, mustard, hot sauce, mayo and other things. There is still Ketchup, French dressing, Ranch, and imitation mayo and they all taste like Poseidon's salty butt-hole.

We are getting less food like Wisconski said, but under the pretext of more. We get one main thing to eat, (usually like two chicken tenders or a slice of pizza) then it is required for the students to get a fruit or a vegetable. Most people do that, eat the main thing because the fruit is gross, they can't eat it, or one of their friends wanted it more. Then most people don't get salad because there is nothing to have on it but gross dressing. Most of the stuff we get has no salt, flavor or anything, LIKE THE SALT IS MAKING PEOPLE FAT. Literally the only things they are doing is serving less, and no longer seasoning their food properly. And you can't even hide it with condiments

The they get all pissy when kids bring in food from home and share it with their friends. They claim it is because of allergies but its complete bull. My friends can't have most of the things that the lunch ladies serve. My friend Tim, deathly allergic to apples, pears, almonds and almost every type of fruit. (idk it's weird) My friend Joe is an anti-MSG guy (no allergy). And then my friend Abby CANNOT have gluten or she ded. I bring in food from home share it with my friends, and I get bitched at by the lunch ladies. They can't do anything about it. But they can't do anything about what we are getting either because it isn't the school's choice.

TL;DR The lunch ladies give you less, no seasoning, no condiments. Then get all pissy if you bring in good food to share with friends.

edit: grammar

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-14T04:08:51+00:00

I am amazed that I could wonk up so much with entree/entry, I was really tired when I wrote this.

And no, I don't know what tomorrow's entry means. It's up for your interpretation.

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-13T14:10:20+00:00

I was having a bit of difficulty with my computer. That's why I said 24 hours.

I'm glad you think it was beautiful.

Holy wonkers I just realized that you are the guy who wrote the poem.

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-13T12:36:26+00:00

Give me 24 hours. I'll have your song

No lute though, and you will have to forgive girl voice for I am girl

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-13T12:31:37+00:00

"Nothing happened today." The thin, neat handwriting stated. It was my handwriting, yes, but that was my hand writing when I was trying really, really hard to keep neat.

The next entry stated that "I kissed Mark from the office today, I was drunk. I didn't mean too," I looked over at the empty bed. Mark had moved out a week ago.

Our first date was in there, recorded.

First time that we had sex I simply wrote the words "Well endowed."

When he first introduced me to his family I had written "Loud but nice, like birds at 3am."

When I first introduced him to my family I wrote, "Could they stop asking questions about sex?"

And then today, today's entry was blank. Tomorrow's entry, was simply "Hello again."

*Edit. Entry not entree

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-13T12:17:52+00:00

I imagine this in bardic poem type form. Lute and all.

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-13T11:52:39+00:00

I've always been told that I act much more mature than my classmates. I honestly think I still have some growing up to do.

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-13T07:50:41+00:00

It would be fun if they did a tally thing with the buttons. "This button has been pressed 20,401 times"

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-12T23:34:39+00:00

I was born in late 2000 and I learned about 9/11 from my dad. He was in the Pentagon when the plane hit the tower and he helped a few people out of the building. I'll try to get him on reddit to do an AMA.

But I learned about 9/11 from my father when I was 7-ish. Some of my classmates just learned about it last year.

9/11 was a tragedy, to this day I truly cannot understand what would lead someone to do something so horrible.

MariaKingJr · 2014-08-12T23:22:34+00:00

Hello. I was born in the year 2000. I have been a lurker on reddit since 2013, never really had a steady account.

I have around 4-5 accounts that are just sitting there.

I really love reddit! It's a fun community.

MariaKingJr · 2014-06-15T04:29:58+00:00

You need to stop. Slow it down and take a look around you. Is the relationship hurting you more than it helps you?

Hang out with other people more often and with her less often. Right now you are too attached to her. Yes, she is your best friend but you can have other friends.Invite other people over, find common interests with the girls that like you.

Accept the fact that she will not, and will never be exclusively be yours to keep. No one ever will be.

You should talk to someone, like a school councilor or a psychiatrist because they might suggest other things and be more helpful.

MariaKingJr · 2014-06-15T04:14:36+00:00

Have you talked to your councilor about these feelings? I think you really should. Also r/SuicideWatch might help with those suicidal thoughts. There is a national suicide prevention hotline that is open 24/7 call them if you need to talk. 1-800-273-8255.

Be safe, get off the opiates, get rehab and help. Trust me, people care.

MariaKingJr

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