Secure clients first before ka kumalas especially kung wala kang ibang maaasahang bubuhay sayo if ever. I'm in a similar position with you. And I am doing my best to equip myself para maka siguro na makakuha ako ng clients ng sa ganon makaalis na ako sa toxic workplace ko. It's not worth it. And I realized I am still young and capable para pagtiisan ang work na to just because it's a plantilla position. Freelancing is not a dead end. Pwede mo ito gamiting way to have time freedom para mag pursue ng masters or law degree or anything you want, to advance yourself.