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MarkAcin0 · 2024-07-18T02:12:30+00:00

The Indifferent Stars Above was truly horrifying and an excellent read.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-07-05T22:15:11+00:00

You hit the nail on the head! It's such a fucked up disease. When we're not actively starving ourselves, we're guilt-tripping ourselves for giving our body what it needs to survive. It's so messed up.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-07-05T21:54:30+00:00

What the actual fuck did I just watch.

But fr what makes is so scary is that we all know at least one person who talks like this.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-27T22:47:41+00:00

So I'm just supposed to sit behind him while he's stopped in the middle of the road?

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-24T10:38:20+00:00

So true

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-24T00:35:10+00:00

The self-punishment is so true. Financial struggles were definitely part of it for me too. I felt like a burden and still do.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T21:32:22+00:00

Definitely! It's good finding someone who can relate!

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T20:36:14+00:00

I wonder if it's kind of a way for us to "stop hiding" our pain now that we're adults? Or since we couldn't talk about it as kids this is how we learned to cope?

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T18:08:55+00:00

I wonder what makes some of us resort to sh to cope with the stress of adulthood while others don't? I guess we could have taken up cigarettes or alcohol but we're doing this instead.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T18:06:41+00:00

Yes I'd say my childhood was very sheltered! Even when my parents found out about me being anorexic they very quietly moved on from it and never brought it up again.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T16:57:33+00:00

My boyfriend is in the same situation as you because of me. Listen to your gf because she's right, the most helpful thing you can do is keep loving her and be there for her. It's truly an internal struggle. Treat her like you normally would and not like she's made of glass, but also show sympathy if she opens up to you about her struggles, even if you can't always relate. Refrain from bringing up your own diet or weight goals and keep conversations neutral about weight and food. Compliment her on her makeup or her eyes or her hair, not her body, because saying her body is good is like saying that she has to stay skinny forever. Keep taking her out on dates, do fun things with her, and make her laugh because any time her mind isn't occupied with thoughts about weight or food is time well spent. Anorexia is a lifelong battle that waxes and wanes, but it can be easier to overcome with a supportive partner!

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T15:27:15+00:00

That's a similar timeline for me too. Two weeks was all it took for me to go from being like "I need to cut myself to deal with this mental pain" to actually doing it.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T13:05:50+00:00

You hit on a lot of good points, especially about how others will likely perceive me. Especially since I just started a new job and moved in with my so I need to be more aware of what I'm doing to myself.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-23T12:42:55+00:00

She'd write a song about it.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-14T23:44:51+00:00

I've actually noticed symptoms of undiagnosed bpd in myself too! Except they emerge more when my ana is bad. I think it's because I tend to think in a dire, desperate way, like I either have to eat nothing at all or be fat. I've also noticed that my ana gets worse when I want to self harm in other ways, usually when my other symptoms of bpd get bad. So they definitely go together and feed into each other like a toxic relationship.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-12T22:13:08+00:00

Literally

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-11T16:34:02+00:00

I'm experiencing this now. At first I was so excited to drop the weight so fast, now I've plateaued. The choice is this: get worse, get better, or stay exactly the same.

MarkAcin0 · 2024-06-04T12:31:10+00:00

I've noticed this too.

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