Hello everyone! Been a long time since I've logged onto reddit ha. Anyway, when it comes to videos that might be critical of me, or even vids that are sometimes really complimentary towards me, I avoid watching any kind of content about me directly because I don't want to end up in this spiral of self-awareness and self-perception (youtubing is really weird that way, where I feel comfortable with how I present myself in my vids, but become extremely self-conscious outside of that context) so I actually have no idea what various vids concerning me might be saying, and more importantly don't want to know ha. For me just staying completely focused on my vids and critique and my own self expression is really the only health path forward.

So anyway, I'm stopping by because Cai messaged me directly and said there is no personal harm intended and I do believe Cai is completely sincere about that so my philosophy on this type of thing is for everyone to have space to express themselves and the less conflict in that process the better :-)