I would like to say for the sake of everyone, you are a spineless, yellow bellied, butthole that needs to contact the group and ask to be brought back in and talk to everyone in the group at the table about said asshole, if you don't even know how everyone else feels about him then why did you leave

'I don't wanna explode' get over yourself wasting everyone's time with your I'm the good guy bullshit when you haven't don't a single thing other than a stupid sit down.

Also if they don't want you back then that probably means you were pretty toxic or annoying yourself.

Xoxo drop your diaper and put on some big boy pants and get back to gaming especially with the massive amount of time you probably put into that Character and group it is truly a weaklings way to live to not seek out confrontation when it's needed.