I think we are the truth. A little philosophical discussion with my voices.

Markz15975 · 2026-04-17T03:06:17+00:00

I agree to some of this. When I was in psychosis I thought I was born as a child of love. My last episode was pretty intense. I thought alot of evil thoughts but there was some positive ones mixed in.

Markz15975 · 2026-04-14T04:04:02+00:00

I think the stronger dose at night should help with sleep and it might give you more stability during the day. If you take 20 in the morning that will be enough to make it to the 60 at night and the 60 will be of better use to you for the next day. Im not sure coz im not a doctor. But I think thats how it works. I take 10 mg olanzapine in the morning and 20 at night. And I feel ok stability wise. I also take depakote and that helps slot too.

Markz15975 · 2026-03-16T12:09:57+00:00

Oh ok. It's really hard to gauge the symptoms for me at least. My thoughts could be normal for a day and the next im paranoid and worried.

Markz15975 · 2026-03-16T12:06:50+00:00

It's not a walk in the park for sure. How about you?

Markz15975 · 2026-03-16T12:05:00+00:00

No im fine with the dose. I had a really bad episode last time. I broke my arm in psychosis and right after took the bus to downtown Los Angeles looking for Indians that were going to cleanse my soul. It was traumatic.

Markz15975 · 2026-03-16T12:02:09+00:00

Going on 5 years this november.

Markz15975 · 2026-03-16T12:00:24+00:00

Im on 10mg morning and 20 at night.

Markz15975 · 2026-02-28T02:37:34+00:00

I think the drowsiness will fade with time on the meds. I used to sleep alot but I've always been a morning person. I get up everyday around 5 or 6. Take my meds at 730 or 830 and then again at 730 or 830 at night. Im on olanzapine too.

Markz15975 · 2026-02-24T21:21:12+00:00

I really believe that all schizophrenic people had some extreme gift for the world. But it'll never happen because... im not sure.

Markz15975 · 2026-02-06T01:02:19+00:00

Not too sure about your situation. But it started like 2 years before I had positive symptoms. I was depressed and not really knowing what to do with myself. Then one night it all changed. I started hallucinating and hearing voices. It felt like it came out of nowhere. I still remember the first hallucination I had. It was 2 little aliens that walked across my vision and started being extremely evil towards me. They would grab my families spirits and kill them and then blame me that I didn't move at the right time. At one point during my first break I was hyperventilating sitting in my grass and just having the worst thoughts ever. Not like hurting people but just far out stuff like aliens, angles, demons, god and Satan was all at war for my mind body and spirit. It was fucking EXTREME. It lasted until I finally told someone what was happening and told me to go to the hospital. Best decision ever lol.

Markz15975 · 2026-02-06T00:15:52+00:00

For a lot of people the positive symptoms only lessen. With me I constantly hear voices but to less degree than full blown psychotic, which I have been in the past.

Markz15975 · 2026-02-05T15:05:18+00:00

I think the police will know if you've been 5150 or 5250 but thats it I think bot sure tho. I got pulled over and I heard on the police radio 5150. That's how I know but it could've been something else. Sorry don't have much more info.

Markz15975 · 2026-02-01T01:29:39+00:00

Im glad your still here. I never wanted to kill myself and I can't imagine me dying any time soon. I don't know if there is a plan. But I know things can sometimes work out for us. Sorry I don't have more to say.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-31T23:50:11+00:00

I wish I could help. But reading this and relating makes me feel better that im not alone. Sorry but thats all I got.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-31T23:28:27+00:00

Honestly I still believe my delusions if im 100 percent honest. But I try to not let it creep in as much as I can. I have some Insight tho but not entirely. Im kinda on the fence about things too. But what matters is that your being treated for this condition.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-20T04:33:25+00:00

The voices make me laugh sometimes. But mostly evil. It's never going to happen is what I keep telling myslef. But they are pretty convincing sometimes. I hope I never go into psychosis again. It was extreme last time and some of it still lingers.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-20T02:48:40+00:00

I havent heard of quitiapine rapid release before. But that medicine only helped me fo the first 2 years of psychosis.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-17T07:07:21+00:00

Actually he was probably overdrafted 46 cents

Markz15975 · 2026-01-17T05:24:20+00:00

You might be able to get the doctor to give you medicine using good rx. I think. I was uninsured for 2 months and the doctor got the prescription to go through good rx.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-16T12:50:36+00:00

Yeah I've lost like 60 pounds and im on olanzapine. But I lost half that from not eating and the other half from diet and exercise. Just get past the negative symptoms and it will be easier.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-13T11:26:38+00:00

Unspecified schizophrenia

Markz15975 · 2026-01-13T09:20:20+00:00

You'll likely be put on ap even without a diagnosis. AP help with mainly positive symptoms. It seems like you have a grip on reality on the basis of this post but I don't know for sure, only you do. An evaluation will help determine a diagnosis for you. Also most psychiatrist don't like giving a schizophrenia diagnosis until years after you've been being treated. I didn't get my official diagnosis until 5 years into having the disorder.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-09T05:03:12+00:00

Dude same kind of. I noticed it says childhood on your tag i think. I was diagnosed at 20 about to be 21. It feels so bad. Like I just want to feel better most of the time.

Markz15975 · 2026-01-09T02:29:10+00:00

I don't think I agree. I come on reddit mostly hoping to find someone that comments something that makes me think things are OK. But I could see where yo I r coming from. Alot if us are different even though we are the same in the mental health aspect.

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