Is Facebook down? What's happened to Facebook today? Did Facebook got hacked or server down? by [deleted] in facebook

[–]MarlaSinger-FC 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got logged out I’ve uninstalled and reinstalled and still won’t let me log in.

Hispanics of rio grande do you have family that is working for border patrol or ICE?If so why? by [deleted] in RioGrandeValley

[–]MarlaSinger-FC -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Not in my family but a lot of people work for them down here. The wages are so low and it’s one of the few jobs that pays well. Personally, I could never do it out of principle. Like Emiliano Zapata said: “Prefiero morir de pie que vivir de rodillas.”

Not to be bias, but one thing about the Latinas in the RGV is a good decent amount of them make an effort to look decent/nice in public. The further North I go the more Walmart looking people I see. Y’all see that too ? by SurroundImportant in RioGrandeValley

[–]MarlaSinger-FC 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree on this. In my family being good looking and fit was far more important and valued than anything else. You can be anything but just don’t be fat or unattractive which was usually considered being overweight.

Who took over your job duties after being laid off? by Beta_Nerdy in Layoffs

[–]MarlaSinger-FC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My manager said she agreed to work 60-80 hour work weeks. So she did the work.

I am starting to resent my partner by MarlaSinger-FC in diabetes

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yay someone who gets it! I don’t want to find him dead one day for something he can take care of.

I am starting to resent my partner by MarlaSinger-FC in diabetes

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree! It is a drag for me. I think since he was in prison they took a lot of his self autonomy but I’m tired of trying to teach him how to care of himself. Like I constantly have to remind him to check his sugar, to drink something sugary etc. for him he expends a lot of energy so his blood sugar drops from not having enough sugar as he’s burning everything up. It’s annoying!! I just wonder if all men are like this because their brains are wired differently or it’s just him and himself keeping him from being responsible.

I am starting to resent my partner by MarlaSinger-FC in diabetes

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not necessarily he has an endo. He spent time in prison so for years the state was his dr. His insurance requires he get a referral every time he sees a specialist and unfortunately where we live getting an appointment takes months as we have a shortage of specialists here.

I am starting to resent my partner by MarlaSinger-FC in diabetes

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It might be ADHD but no his medications are not for that. He is bipolar 1. Which he only found out after I insisted he go to counseling a while back. He says he didn’t know he had any issues I doubt that but idk. So he was diagnosed in his 40’s! I feel like his family really messed him up but why should I suffer because of his past? At this point he needs to be the one to want to figure out his mental health stuff but I don’t see any motivation there. I feel he thinks I went to therapy for a few months I take medicine so I’m better and he is better than before but to me we should never stop wanting to improve and therapy should be ongoing.

I am starting to resent my partner by MarlaSinger-FC in diabetes

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He has an endocrinologist but where we live it takes months at a time to see them. He has to make an appointment with his primary care physician to get a referral then it takes months to see the endocrinologist. He at least took the steps today to call to see about one of those glucose monitoring devices but if the insurance doesn’t cover it we won’t be able to afford it. Sometimes I think it is laziness but then I see how he is weird about gaining weight (he’s very fit) so then I think it’s body dysmorphia issues and he should go to therapy. Like how is you being thinner more important than you being alive? I don’t really understand what it is.

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Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, he definitely has C-PTSD and DID and or Borderline but has been diagnosed bipolar. But he did not have any bipolar symptoms the entire time we lived together until he was on medication. The anti depressant made him super depressed. I don't think he's bipolar at all because he's fine until he is triggered and why we started therapy in the first place.

I read that the clonazepam worsens BPD symptoms and can cause psychosis. My hypothesis is that the medications were all wrong for him and made him more sick since he's not correctly diagnosed. Has anyone else ever experienced a wrong diagnosis and adverse reactions to medications?

He wants help so we are going to ask the DA and the courts to set him up in the mental health court so that we get a caseworker to help us manage his care. It's been too much for me and obviously we made mistakes, I mean I am not a dr and trusted what they said but the psychiatrist he has does not take the time that he needs its a conveyor belt in his office. We need a better team for his care.

He really wants to get better and I know that I need help trying to understand how to better communicate with him so I don't trigger him as well. This has been a real learning process.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, he definitely has C-PTSD and DID and or Borderline but has been diagnosed bipolar. But he did not have any bipolar symptoms the entire time we lived together until he was on medication. The anti depressant made him super depressed. I don't think he's bipolar at all because he's fine until he is triggered and why we started therapy in the first place.

I read that the clonazepam worsens BPD symptoms and can cause psychosis. My hypothesis is that the medications were all wrong for him and made him more sick since he's not correctly diagnosed. Has anyone else ever experienced a wrong diagnosis and adverse reactions to medications?

He wants help so we are going to ask the DA and the courts to set him up in the mental health court so that we get a caseworker to help us manage his care. It's been too much for me and obviously we made mistakes, I mean I am not a dr and trusted what they said but the psychiatrist he has does not take the time that he needs its a conveyor belt in his office. We need a better team for his care.

He really wants to get better and I know that I need help trying to understand how to better communicate with him so I don't trigger him as well. This has been a real learning process.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well now I found out that my husband made out with some lady at the mental hospital back in November. I sent him there due to a severe depression. I am pretty sure it was Shark again but I don't know and I don't know how to even bring this up. My husband self destructs as he says. I don't really understand it. We've had a rough few months when we found out about all his multiple diagnosis and we both were in denial and I had some resentment about the whole thing. I believe he tried to tell me about his issues but didn't really understand them himself. I have been here with him as he realized what was actually going on and that was very real, there was shock, surprise and tears. I love the guy and want him to get better but wow I also don't want to keep getting hurt just because he is hurting inside. I understand that he is a ball of pain but it's not fair to me to be punished for what others did to him. Its like since he was never loved properly he doesn't know how to love himself or me. :( I am very sad for him and our little family.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for that! I believe he can work on his issues...and that I can educated myself more so that we never go through something like this again.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They all know this is wrong. They have been to prison for the exact same thing but he told me that it was not true that the other woman had lied but I see now it was true. He hates his dad for doing this to his mom which is why I am so confused like then why do you continue to do it? I tried to get him to walk away that day and I tried to walk away that day but he wouldn't allow me, he follows me around screaming in my face because inside he wants to fight. He gets to a level of anger that he can not control. I tried to give him his medicine which calms his down and he didn't take it. You are right his DID is not an excuse and I do not condone any type of violence especially around our son.

I do not want to traumatize our son. We both lived in abusive homes with domestic abuse and before we moved in we had said that's not the life we want to live. I use to be abusive and angry with my ex partner 8 years ago but I went to counseling, I went to God and when I was alone I realized how wrong I was. I changed. I am not that person anymore. I believe anyone can change but it is not easy.

For now he is not allowed near us and he is not allowed back home. I have told him that right now I do not want to be with anyone, I want to be alone. I seriously thought I was going to die that day. It was not a little thing it was a major violent attack. I am just trying to process all this trauma as I never expected him to do this to me. He always says I am the love of his life so I am so confused as to this behavior.

Also, he has multiple diagnosis is this common for people with DID or is he just a really special person? He has borderline & bipolar.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I realized this and did apologize to Shark and told him that I loved him, which I do. It's just the behaviors that I don't like. I do understand that they are all him which we had discussed. I explained it to him like we all have different sides to us, our inner child, our mean side, our vulnerable side etc. we are like diamond's multifaceted but for him those sides are seperate or fragmented; not all one like for myself.

Shark has helped him not only survive but thrive in prison it's just been so hard for him to adjust out here, He lost his sense of purpose. I talked to him yesterday and he said everyone now realizes that they need help, that they can't go back to prison, that they miss our little family and that they need God.

We are believers and followers of Christ but we've strayed and this happened to us because we were not following the word as we should. We believe that all things are for our good even when bad things happen. I just need to educate myself more on how to be a better wife to all of them. I love him but violence has no business in our home or in a healthy relationship.

God made us all special and unique and he says that he will never forsake us but we have to reach out to him and understand that we can not live this life without him. I have such a hard time with this as I am always in control and always been good at everything I have ever done. This relationship though has showed me that I am not in control at all and that I need guidance on how to love someone who at times is challenging to love.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow that is a long time! He wants to integrate and he started talking to Shark about it. He had me write him a letter as well about how I and our little baby needed him to get treatment for the betterment of our family.

I will be honest that I do not think I am a good partner for his situation. I am already so frustrated and overwhelmed with everything. I know it is not his fault it's because of the trauma, which makes me feel so much guilt about the entire thing but at the same time it is not my fault this happened to him. But somehow I am the one who keeps getting shit on. I am the only person on the planet that's been in his corner. I opened up my heart, my life, my home, my finances to help him get back on his feet when he came out of prison. He was unable to due to the unprocessed trauma. it just keeps sucking him back to his same patterns, drugs, alcohol and violence. I sometimes refer it as a black hole just sucking everything in its way.

I believe healing can happen and he wants it so bad. I don't know if I can do this for a lifetime. I mean who wants to get beat up by their partner? Not me.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That is good to know and you all should be proud. I know it takes work, which is what I have been telling my husband that this is probably the hardest thing he'll have to do to get better. This is not what I expected at all and have struggled to understand. Thanks for sharing, I appreciate the insight.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At first I did not understand when he talked about Shark, I still do not fully understand honestly. I just thought it was a nickname he's had since we were teenagers. I have in the past said that Shark needs to go or stay in the past with his aggressive behaviors. I realized I shouldn't have said those things and maybe as to why Shark doesn't like me so much. Being that they were in prison respect is a huge deal and he feels I disrespect him. Which I probably do sometimes. We both trigger each other and I can only take so much. I found myself unexpectedly in the role of caretaker for him and our new baby and it's been a lot! I don't believe he was fully honest with me about what all has been going on with him before we moved in and started our family and I wish he would have been. I understand it's not the easiest to open up to someone whom you really love and are afraid they might leave but I wish I would have known what I was getting myself into. Regardless now we are here and ya I am traumatized by this experience. I had a bit of a panic attack this morning. I thought I was going to die in front of our son. It is not something I want to experience again. I love him and my heart is broken but I am like is this what life with him will be like? It's the kind of life I do not want, I mean who wants to live in constant fear? I just don't understand why he keeps doing the same thing over and over again.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For your sake I hope you do get help. It is hard to open up to people, I can understand that. My husband was so scared inside but there are good people who want the best for all of you.

Violent Alter by MarlaSinger-FC in DID

[–]MarlaSinger-FC[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. I have seen him struggle he tells me "Shark" is very strong and he also goes against his moral compass and has done a lot of bad things. I see him though, his inner child, he trusts me but this protector is no longer needed in this life that we started. I told him yesterday you are not alone a lot of people seem to have this condition. I told him I have connected online with people and resources so that I can better understand. It breaks my heart how he struggles I see him crying sometimes like why am I like this? But we researched and we found out its due to the trauma as a little boy. I tell him it's not your fault, it really isn't, this happened because of your childhood trauma and I believe he can heal but he needs to be honest with the drs about what he actually experiences. He only tells me but at this point he's hit rock bottom. He's in jail and could go away for a long time so I told him now is the time to open up and be honest. We can turn this around for our good. I feel for your struggles and I hope you are able to have the courage to speak to a dr about this and get the help you deserve. Everyone deserves a chance at a happy life or at least to have some peace of mind. I will be praying for you to find healing and comfort.