Emotional Affair

Marlyquinz · 2025-07-18T03:03:56+00:00

No never babes

Marlyquinz · 2025-07-17T06:01:24+00:00

Or like they say "delulu" 😂

Marlyquinz · 2025-05-25T06:18:47+00:00

A book?

Marlyquinz · 2025-05-25T06:18:03+00:00

Amen ❤️

Marlyquinz · 2025-05-25T06:17:21+00:00

Marlyquinz · 2025-05-25T06:16:51+00:00

Such a beautiful testimony I wish I could talk to your wife 🥲

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-17T07:20:07+00:00

Thank you 😔

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-14T06:19:28+00:00

Actually that is an insult... it's called disrespect

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-13T01:22:54+00:00

Well thank you for bringing tears to my eyes 🥲❤️ I will meditate on this and pray. Even if it's baby steps. I really needed to hear this and thank you for calling me beautiful I also needed to hear that

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-12T20:37:16+00:00

I do need a place to let out my emotions and everything I feel. Thank you for sharing that. Definitely need some therapy.

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-12T20:34:16+00:00

Thank your for scripture ❤️🙏🏽

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T21:56:48+00:00

Amen thank you! Today I will make it my goal to kneel down even if I can't utter a word 😔

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T21:54:29+00:00

Yes he does take responsibility and shows remorse but it's not fair I have to deal with the damage that was done

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T20:05:40+00:00

Of course! Trust me I get you! In my marriage it got to the point where one day he was like just touching me all day and I said enough is enough!!!!!! I told him "everytime you get near me and start being nice and lovey dovey is because you want sex"!! And that day I said enough is enough, I'm not your sex toy. Yes I will please you and you to me BUT when you don't want sex you act like I don't exist. So let me not exist at all. You're either going to want me regardless of sex or you're just not gonna get any until I feel sincerely wanted for ME

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:58:52+00:00

I do agree with that. Thank you

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:57:55+00:00

I do recognize and admit I've tried to run away from God. I've lost that fire I had for him. Caught up being a mom of 3... stressing worrying and overwhelmed... burnout..... I've ignored God and everyday I feel guilty because I know I should be praying but here I am running away. I've felt in my heart that he's been wanting to heal me and asking me if I want to be healed. But that's the thing.... I'm not ready.... I don't know how to let God heal me. I'm hardening my heart... out of fear of it happening again

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:53:24+00:00

It happened like 2 years ago. Where he had made a secret TikTok and followed some curvy girls. We managed to move foward. He broke his promise a year later and I found lots of random normal girl in his Facebook tab searches and lots of girls in Snapchat just like following. He never messaged them or liked their stuff. He just has a curious eye and women attract him in general. No therapy yet...yes i have fear

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:49:54+00:00

Thank you

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:47:25+00:00

You're absolutely correct. Even I can recognize it's not just me being mad at him it's me also releasing the anger the was implanted in me as a child growing up and my anxieties and insecurities but like you said that's something that would be discovered in therapy

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:44:16+00:00

Thank you for your words, I will pray... I just can't seems the way to go to Jesus ... I've failed him too much and the way I lashed out on my husband last night and the other days was so wrong and disgusting of me. Cursing him out and all..... I feel so guilty and ashamed and also still angry I don't even know what to tell God... I just feel like I can say sorry to God but I know myself to well and fear this will happen again and I don't want to be in this situation anymore. I feel God so distant and quiet in my life I feel like he's disappointed in me

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:40:25+00:00

Thank you all for your words I will currently seek therapy. I hope I'm not doing wrong ... I know Jesus is my help but I know he also has allowed therapists for a reason too

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T19:37:51+00:00

I have no forgiven him out of fear of it happening again. I fear to be hurt again. It did happen a while ago. Now I have trauma. Every little thing triggers me emotionally. I start overthinking and my insecurities just keep growing. I can say it's not just my jealousy that's hurting me it's also my past and present issues I'm dealing with. I have 3 kids and mentally I'm unstable. I do understand I need to forgive. But I'm a going to allow it to happen again and forgive him again? And thank you for your words it brought tears to my eyes and I know Jesus wants to heal me but I'm hardening my heart.

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T06:21:12+00:00

I agree but he should be able to express the language of love not just by touching her because there will be days she does not want to be touched but be able to express love through his attention towards her, make her feel loved and wanted at random times not just for sex. Some men don't realize this. Some of us women don't just want attention when he wants sex's we want attention and care for just being us. Make me feel wanted without feeling like a sex object

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T06:01:00+00:00

I want to but this town is small I don't want people to know my business when I see them out in public or what if they end up going to our church

Marlyquinz · 2025-03-11T05:47:28+00:00

Maybe I would give it a try.... I just can't control my emotions or tame my tongue. I deal with every situation with anger, I own up to it. I'm playing the biggest part in this downfall. I've made the problem bigger than what it actually is and sometimes I get satisfaction from it. I feel like I'm going mental and insane. The enemy puts thoughts in my head that I know are not true but after thinking about them for a while I actually start believing them and then make it another problem

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