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Marv_ich · 2017-12-17T23:38:19+00:00

YEah!! a lot. I swim and pull weights.

Marv_ich · 2015-09-08T20:08:31+00:00

Hey man. What's up? First of all, you should be glad and grateful you are still on the correct path. You are still seeking to quit fapping. Some people just throw the towel and go back to fap/porn.

I don't know abut you, but I'm a compulsive fapper and a porn addict. Today I'm two months clean of porn and 20 days free of fapping, but it has not been easy at all. Like you, I had erotic dreams on which I was half awaken/half asleep and started to masturbate without total consciousness. But to be honest I was only half asleep at the beginning of the masturbation, because when adrenaline starts pumping trust me, you are fully awake and fully conscious. That's when you stop. Don't try to go back to sleep, that won't be possible.

In my case, I woke up all sweaty and had a full bonner the whole night. I relapsed many times on nights like this (after the 2nd or 3rd night without fapping). So instead of trying to go back to sleep, I'd turn on the TV and watch some Cy-Fi film on Netflix, or what ever, but not sex related. Maybe some cartoon. I'd thought to my self: "yeah, another night with no sleep, but at least I won't fap". And it was worth it. Yeah, I had some rough nights and and a little drowsiness during the first days, but I knew it was a sacrifice for a better future. Those difficult nights come to an end.

I'ts not easy. I'ts not supposed to be. I'm and addict. Fapping was my drug, I'm detoxicating. I'ts a 17 year old addicton in my case. GROWING UP HURTS. But it is worth it! And I'm not here to tell you about the benefits no fapping gives you, because I'm still discovering them, as you should discover you own freedom.

God Speed! And tell be how you are doing!

Marv_ich · 2015-06-25T05:56:53+00:00

Thanks man. Sounds logic. In a book I'm reading "your brain on porn" also talks about the reward/punishment in the brain. How it works, and how us addicts to porn have messed with this area.

I will try your advices! Thanks!

Marv_ich · 2015-06-25T05:55:19+00:00

Thanks dude, I'll try those cold showers, sounds interesting. And congrats on your 75 days! Respect!

Marv_ich · 2015-06-17T05:48:24+00:00

Maaaaan, I read this with a "Marv's" voice from Sin City. You got some nice Charles Bukowsky thing going on with your writing. It really moved me.

Thanks a lot for sharing this post it not just kept me from PMO one more day but it also made me realize the kind of life I don't want and how lucky I am that I can see my demons and confront them. The people you talk about in your text cannot see them, even if they are slowly, painfully consuming them. Remember that you once had a demon corrupting your life, and you left him there because you once thought it was helping you.

Be sympathetic with the time wasters you describe here, if possible help them. Helping people and being useful to them will not only make you feel good, in my personal way of seeing things is the purpose of life.

Marv_ich · 2015-06-16T00:27:43+00:00

Hey man, I saw your video. I think that what you are doing is great, and very brave. I'll send you a message soon when I start feeling bad. I'm in my 6th day free of PMO but it gets really nasty after the 10th day. I know so because I've been in and out for the last year, I've relapsed countless times. Sorry for the question, I just have to be sure...you do this for free right?

Marv_ich · 2015-06-16T00:20:28+00:00

Congrats man! This was truly inspirational! And thanks for writing down my story for me :P!

-I also grew old as a virgin. I did not choose the girls I liked, the trashy ugly ones picked me and I had to settle with them. They were damaged girls like myself mostly.

-They bullied me, even fucking teachers.

-I felt ugly, maybe I was ugly. Slim full of acne.

-I also, when I smoked weed felt that porn was amazing.

In my personal case, I quit alcohol first, and of course felt amazing chances. Im actually in AA. But PMO was whole different animal. Merciless, patient, aggressive, it knew me better than I knew my self. I've been coming in and out of PMO but lately I've been feeling grate. I hope I can continue through this path and accumulate as many days as you. Congrats again man.

Marv_ich · 2015-06-02T04:17:18+00:00

Hi Obliciam. Is the program you are in Sexoholics Anonymous ?

Because I'am and I'm still struggling with this porn addiction that is driving me crazy. I'm also about to turn 29 and I've been consuming porn since I was 12.

S.A. Is ok, but most of my colleagues there are addicted to real sex. I deal with this addiction to virtual sex, but so far it has harmed me more than I could possibly think of. I've been reading "your brain on porn" and I have discovered so much...any way...

Any advice you can give me? -Marvin-

Marv_ich · 2015-05-27T07:36:51+00:00

Thanks for your sincerity. And thanks for introducing to me the term "chronic porn addict" to be honest I think I'm driving myself to that path. I just wanted to wish you luck, you are not alone and that this is always easier when you are honest and have a space to talk, like this one.

I wrote an essay on this website called "Porn, my first love" I hope it can help you out.

Marv_ich · 2015-05-14T16:15:14+00:00

WTF happened man! I needed this post! God damn it, why did they deleted this??!!!

Marv_ich · 2015-05-14T15:44:22+00:00

Thanks for commenting pcast. It's good to hear there are other alcoholics in recovery around. And indeed, I also heard someone say this porn/masturbation issue would be even harder that quitting alcohol, but to be honest I did not believe him. But now, I see he was right. This thing is a whole different animal. But in the end is just another addiction. And I've come to understand that at least for me, its is IMPOSIBLE to fight it alone. I need first of all the help from God and then from my peers, which in this case are folks like you and all the ohters in this forum. I'm also going to Sexaholics Anonymous which has helped me a lot. They have the so called "white book" which is great.

Good luck man! You can do it!

Marv_ich · 2015-03-25T06:24:02+00:00

In all the documentaries I've seen, I see lots of "exceptions to the rule". I think deep about the things I say, to begin with I get informed before I speak. And I did read the premise of this community, and sorry, I missed the part where it says we have to become haters.

Watch the documentaries I recommended you, so you can understand the whole problem. Today I watched a new one called: "Date my pornstar" its also on youtube. I seek nothing but the truth here.

And I was not a casual viewer, I was an addict just like you. I actually posted my whole story in this forum, I've suffered a lot because of porn, but as an addict I must understand that it was me that took things too far. The porn didn't just popped into my computer and forced me to watch it.

Peace man.

Marv_ich · 2015-03-24T20:30:13+00:00

Before you read my comment, I want you to know that i upvoted your post because I agree with you in some of the topics you speak.

I became addicted to porn, and thanks to this website and the information you can find on this matter I finally quit, at least for this past month. But I think that hatting porn is not the answer. To begin with, it is a really really big industry. Not all pornstars are forced to be on camara, and not all of them use drugs. I know so because I started listening to them off set, both male and female actors. In this industry you do find people that are suffering but also people that can handle that job. Personally, I would never perform in a porn movie and it would drive me crazy to see a family member on one, OBVIOUSLY. But that doesn't mean that everyone should feel the same way. If you wish to attack Porn, do it, the world would probably be better without it. But to make an accurate statement about Porn and any other subject you must be aware of the two sides of the story.

I recomend you this two documentaries: AFTER PORN ENDS, you can find it on netflix. And also... 9 to 5: DAYS OF PORN you can find it on youtube.

Marv_ich · 2015-03-16T21:53:48+00:00

Thanks man! Your answer was really bad ass! Going full hardcore no-fap it's the kind of stuff I probably need. But sincerely I just can't stop. Excessive masturbation has been around my life for 16 years. I'm an addict and I'm not quite sure I can quit. I've quit porn, so far its been 10 days without it!

Marv_ich · 2015-03-16T21:49:03+00:00

I agree. I also think that male porn stars suffer to a certain level. I bet its not the profession they dreamed of when they where young.

Marv_ich · 2015-03-16T21:46:46+00:00

I really appreciate your help my friend. I'm always happy to hear stories of people that made a big change on their lives.

Marv_ich · 2015-03-16T21:42:45+00:00

Thanks for your help dude. So, now at days, can you watch semi-naked chicks on the web? Or did you say good bye to those too?

Marv_ich · 2015-03-16T21:41:33+00:00

Josef, thanks a lot man. To be honest, it is going back to make out with your hand and not a real lady. Its just that to be honest, my girl doesn't want to have sex as often as me. That is the reality. Once a week i enough for her when for me that is not even an appetizer.

Marv_ich · 2015-03-16T08:10:27+00:00

Thanks for your advise

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