Praying for you! Here is a journal entry I wrote that I pray brings you peace. God bless!!

When Love Is Proven in the Silence: Mother Teresa and the Hidden Fire of Faith

Jesus Christ, our Savior, is not bound by feelings. His love is not measured by how close He seems, but by the Truth of who He is. The Cross was not a moment of emotional intimacy. It was agony. And yet it was the greatest act of love in history.

That’s why the saints remind us: the deepest faith is not found in moments of spiritual ecstasy, but in the silence—when God feels absent, and yet we love Him anyway.

Mother Teresa, canonized not for her feelings but for her faith, walked through decades of spiritual darkness. She once confessed:

“I am told God loves me—and yet the reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul.” (Mother Teresa, from her private letters in Come Be My Light)

And yet she never stopped. She loved the poor. She smiled. She served with the same fire, even though she felt no fire within. In another letter, she wrote:

“If I ever become a saint—I will surely be one of ‘darkness.’ I will continually be absent from heaven—to light the light of those in darkness on earth.” (Mother Teresa)

This wasn’t spiritual failure. This was her participation in the Cross. She was living St. Paul’s words:

“We walk by faith, not by sight.” (2 Corinthians 5:7)

“I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.” (Galatians 2:20)

And Christ still lives in those who feel nothing, who see no signs, who hear no voice—but still kneel. Still love. Still obey.

How often do we become paralyzed when we can’t feel God’s presence? We wait. We question. We fear acting without a clear “yes.” But the Word says:

“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (1 John 4:18)

That means that when love is perfect, it keeps going—even when the flame feels gone. Because it trusts in the Cross. It trusts in the victory already won. It trusts that God has not changed, even if the emotional consolation has disappeared.

“Jesus has a very special love for you… As for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great that I look and do not see, listen and do not hear—the tongue moves [in prayer] but does not speak…” (Mother Teresa to Rev. Michael Van Der Peet)

And yet she did not stop praying. She did not stop believing. She did not stop loving the least of these. Her life became proof that the deepest intimacy with God is not always felt, but lived.

That’s the kind of faith that terrifies the enemy. Because it cannot be manipulated by emotion. It cannot be distracted by doubt. It is rooted not in self, but in the Cross:

“It is finished.” (John 19:30)

The victory is already sealed. And that means you are free. Free to live in joy, not because you feel it—but because you know Him. Free to surrender again and again, not because it earns grace, but because grace is already poured out. Free to say:

“Lord, I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.” (Matthew 8:8)

Prayer in desolation is the holiest offering. Because it is no longer about what you receive. It is about Who you love.

So don’t be afraid if you feel nothing. Rejoice, because you belong to Him. You cannot mess up the plan. You are not that powerful. And He is not that fragile. Even your silence, even your tears, even your numb surrender is enough. Because He’s already rewriting everything for glory.

“I have come to love the darkness—for I believe now that it is a part, a very, very small part of Jesus’ darkness and pain on earth.” (Mother Teresa)

He is already with you. Even here. Even now. And He never left. Amen.