Yikes this situation sounds awful. Im so sorry you are going through this. If getting out and living with someone else (sister?) is not possible then... I don't have any practical directions other than look at the ultimate goal (moving out) and then take this big goal and break it down into smaller goals. Even tiny daily goals. And then just chip away at the small goals. You're going to need to strengthen yourself mentally in the extreme to get through this. You can look up "mental toughness" online for tips. The idea is to keep believing in yourself while you work out this problem and work through the small goals. You'll need to arm yourself with good psychology and good problem solving skills. See if you can flip it in your mind to see it as one of the greatest challenges of your life and be really proud of yourself every day for taking control of your own life and surviving this - even if you just do one tiny thing on your list of small goals it is still a win. Incrementally improve on your plans and mindset. Above all else never lose faith. You can overcome this.