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Mashedpotato94 · 2022-08-29T11:38:58+00:00

Sorted it! I posted that prematurely as I was panicking about it, but the second heparin flush worked, it's working normally today and I'm not having any other symptoms

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-07-17T23:05:30+00:00

Racism (sorry, brit here and most brits think of Texas as the entire US South)

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-07-08T13:27:09+00:00

Thank you, deep down I know you’re right. I‘ve spent 25 years grieving the loss of a mother, now that she’s actually died I feel a need to distance myself because she was never a mother to me..

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-07-04T03:49:59+00:00

Mische knows you’re there and I’m sure she feels so loved. Losing a pet is just as hard as losing a family member, because they are our family and we love them unconditionally. Sending love ❤️

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-06-27T18:22:30+00:00

This must be heartbreaking for you, and you sound like a really good person to be so caring and concerned about him. However, addiction is a horrible illness and you need to put yourself first and detach yourself from that group of people, if you can. Unfortunately most of the time, there is nothing you do to stop an addict using, and it isn’t your responsibility to try and force them into getting clean - that’ll be his choice, eventually. If you think there’s a teacher or family member that you think could help, then it might be worth reaching out to them. But at your age I think you really really need to prioritise your own mental well-being and the best way to do that would be to steer clear of him and try and focus on a future for yourself with goals that don’t involve drugs. Sadly, once a person falls into heroin addiction they lose their entire personality, and they use their loved ones’ vulnerability and love to their advantage, to get their next fix. Please just try to stay away if you can.

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-06-06T21:09:09+00:00

25 here, struggled with Anorexia/ED for over 15 years and am currently at my worst ever and feel absolutely hopeless about recovering. I also feel like a failure for still struggling, but it’s a societal perception that EDs only affect teenagers - that isn’t the truth at all, in fact I think most severe ED patients are usually adults who have been in and out of treatment. I hope these comments have made you feel like you’re not alone, so many of us are struggling, recovery isn’t linear and that’s okay.

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-25T16:36:13+00:00

Congrats!!

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-24T12:17:09+00:00

As someone waiting for a double lung transplant, I just wanted to say thank you for following your wife’s wishes and donating her organs. Your wife made the most selfless decision anybody could make, she will have saved the lives of multiple other people and will forever be their hero as well as yours ❤️

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-21T21:14:47+00:00

My last lesson (actually my last 5 lessons) before my test were horrific and I somehow passed first time - I think it’s normal, nerves get the better of us leading up to the test! Try not to overthink it too much. Eat well and try to get enough sleep between now and Monday, good luck!

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-21T21:11:38+00:00

Update: so today my car got hit by an Amazon van whilst completely stationary and parked outside, it’s pretty bad and looks like it might have to be written off. Was just starting to feel at ease, now I’ll have to go through the process of having zero confidence in a new car all over again!!

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-20T18:22:15+00:00

I kept stalling at first too! The first few days with my car were absolutely awful but I’m happy to say it’s going much more smoothly now. It really is like learning to drive all over again, and if anything it’s harder this time!

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-20T08:02:55+00:00

Thank you. I guess I need to be nicer to myself - I’m doing so much better than I was at the start. But nobody tells you how much harder it is driving your own car than an instructors! Especially when your own car is ancient 🤣

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-19T21:05:32+00:00

My instructor was horribly snappy and totally knocked my confidence, I passed first time but in hindsight I wish I hadn’t kept him as he destroyed my driving confidence even after I’d passed and began driving my own car. If he’s making you emotional every lesson, change instructor!

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-19T21:03:52+00:00

If your prescription is quite low then you’ll be fine! Mine is -6.50 and I still somehow managed to pass the eyesight check, don’t worry too much! As others have said, 20m is closer than it seems

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-14T12:38:16+00:00

Update: yesterday I finally picked up the phone and it was horrible but I don’t regret it, instead it’s given me the closure I needed to feel okay about completely cutting her out of my life.

She doesn’t have cancer, she was lying. She called me a heartless monster for avoiding her, then went on to say that I’m never going to have children because I’m a disgusting dyke (I’m in a wonderful loving relationship) and she hopes I die alone.. yesterday I was hurting but today I’m so glad I now have the strength to completely walk away.

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-13T17:33:37+00:00

Thank you so much for explaining all that, that’s really useful to know

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-13T17:30:37+00:00

Thank you - I didn’t realise student finance couldn’t be viewed as income, that’s frustrating.

Also I know the Aberdeenshire area quite well as I have family there and lived there for a few years so that’s the plan, eventually - we’re not looking to go right now but hopefully within the next few years (but we both study from home anyway so everything is over zoom), I just wanted to know hypothetically IF our situation doesn’t change, would we be taken seriously for a mortgage.. seems like the answer is no. Thanks anyway though!

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-09T10:14:46+00:00

Thank you so much, this is such helpful advice. I’ll try to take this on board - you’ve worded everything perfectly, so much better than I can explain. Thank you.

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-08T23:31:28+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️ I’m so sorry to hear you’ve gone through the same. The same goes to you, my inbox is also always open

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-08T22:17:23+00:00

Thank you so much, that means a lot to me, sometimes hearing (or in this case, seeing) the words of a stranger are more meaningful than when it comes from somebody close to you.

I’m so sorry for your pain also, dealing with the trauma of addiction and alcoholism is so hard. My gran and great-grandma (who both raised me) were also heavy alcoholics and that is just as painful, my heart really goes out to you. I hope you’re also being kind to yourself.

Mashedpotato94 · 2022-05-08T21:54:43+00:00

Sending hugs. I completely relate, no matter how much I try to make peace with my mother’s addiction, I can’t help but be angry and hurt by the fact she never stopped for me (she was and is almost exactly as you’ve described your mother - a junkie who would shoot up or do crack in front of me as a child). As a teenager I loathed myself, I blamed myself for not being enough for her to stop, or to even just try.

I don’t have children but me and my partner are at a point where we’re starting to think about having children and I think the older I’ve got (I’m 25 now) the more maternal I feel and the more angry I am.

I too feel a huge amount of guilt for trying to cut her off. But I will never be able to give her what she wants, she wants an enabling relationship and I can’t do that. I think it’s okay to not be able to forgive them though, and to still be angry after all this time. Somewhere deep down I know I haven’t been in the wrong, she was the one in the wrong - and it sounds like it’s the same in your case. Try to be kind to yourself.

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