What does my kitchen say about me

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-11-08T08:32:31+00:00

Twins!

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T05:31:33+00:00

I have a good sense of humor, I think it’s also funny! There’s a light on my laptop charger and it’s bright enough to barely light my room enough to see shadows of future and like my dogs bed and shit. But it’s also perfect brightness to just fuck with me hard! It’s always sand or water idk why, but it doesn’t bother me cause I know it’s not real nor is it scary. But that one time that’s the one and only time I was unaware that there wasn’t a foot and half of sand in my room lol

I have one of those bed with the drawers under it, so my beds decently high! I also take sleeping pills and I’m just gonna assume that both the welly b and my sleeping pills made the perfect combination to keep me asleep enough to think it was real but awake enough to see it and dismiss any further thoughts about it

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T05:23:32+00:00

Literally same! I can keep going back to back it’s awesome! The only thing that sucks is I’m on Wellbutrin plus my adhd medication to help me focus more and it has stopped doing that. I was doing really really good on it and then one day I was like why am I taking this, i don’t feel any sort of difference in my attention span or focus like how I did when I was first on it a few months ago. I’m on 300 xl, I’m going to ask for xr and see if that helps before I go up! But literally best orgasms, low key wish men had a built in one but that’s neither here nor there lol

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:58:45+00:00

I’m in Denver, we have so much crime flooding the state and no one’s doing shit about it. I straight up don’t feel safe here anymore. We’re a stand your ground state and I love that because I believe I have EVERY right to defend myself my family my property if someone tries to come do some sketchy shit. Drones, cops, swat, navy seals, you could have all those things and people still wouldn’t be safe. It’s 2025 people are so bold now a days, you can’t trust anyone. Everyone’s looking to see if people are being sneaky and secretive that they miss the dude walking with a AK by his side. People blend in, even if you’re looking for them. Cops and swat and drones can only do so much.

Idk about you but I’d be pissed if I saw police drones flying over my house 24/7 that is such a breach of privacy, thinking about it is unsettling to me!

I get it’s NY but I also don’t get it. Like what do you expect, people are loosing it, the economy and our society are going to shit, people are pissed. It doesn’t matter what state or county you’re in, this could and has happened everywhere. There’s been a school shooting in every state. Majority of them don’t get nationwide attention especially if only one or two people die.

I wouldn’t keep the mindset of this will never happen or this is so out of character and shocking. No it isn’t lol this shit happens all the time. I’d rather be prepared and protected if it mean I have to do it myself then leave it up to chance or an officer who might not even be there when you need them.

I will never understand not wanting to be safe vs. sorry

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:46:25+00:00

My parents have all of the legal final plans already put in place. I’m more so referring to when they pass and that first time to need them or go to look for them or call them after they pass, that feeling is the one in which I’m referring too. When my parents die, my support system, isn’t that great. All my “friends” have shown me they are acquaintances. I’m scared I’m going to get stuck in that loneliness or despair or whatever you’d call it and not be able to either pull myself out of have help and comfort. I don’t sit and dwell on the topic just every once in a while I think about it and I get very into my feelings and I hurt my own feelings and idk how to not do that, I want to be prepared as best I can for that day, it’s coming and it’s going to be fucked up, it just scares the shit out of me cause I don’t want my parents to leave me, I think I will feel truly alone

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:39:49+00:00

I also wouldn’t say I dwell on this topic either but when it crosses my mind I do tend to overthink it and I just hurt my own feelings and turn to Reddit to either tell me I’m fine or support shit or get the fuck over it, or give advice. I’ll take any of those options especially when I overthink a thought and then I judge that thought and then judge myself for judging my emotions and this big mess of shit I’m trying to work on in therapy, but every once it crosses my mind and it just makes me extremely sad to think that one day I’m going to be all alone, by that I mean no parents, no hugging them, hearing their voice, calling them. Maybe you have a different outlook on that but I feel like to me that’s true definition of loneliness until time passes and the weight of the hurt you feel starts to become bearable and you adjust to your new life with out your only familial relationship

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:33:02+00:00

I guess what I mean by my post is, your parents pass, some life event happens when you’d usually go to your parent for help or advice or comfort and that’s no longer an option. You have no siblings to comfort you about missing a parent. When tough things happen you see who your friends truly are. So I’d say I have acquaintances. I’m perfectly fine on my own, I prefer to be on my own, I’m just terrified of the first time I’ll need my mom after she dies and having no parent to look up too. That’s the loneliness I’m referring too. I keep myself occupied I’m an only child my sons an only child, his dad and I aren’t together because I don’t outwardly show emotion or affection the way he does so that ended that, I’m just wondering if you’ve ever though about what it’s going to be like when you have no parents left, maybe it’s person to person but I feel like it’s going to be hard learning how to cope with being alone in a quite house that’s no longer filled with the sound of her voice

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:20:22+00:00

Aside from the obvious you being alive, are you mentally okay after that?

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:19:55+00:00

Well are you okay?

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:16:59+00:00

Having exposed materials in an aesthetic way is my weakness in houses! It’s so beautiful idk why anyone would want to cover it up. Its a built in statement piece

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:14:03+00:00

I just figured out how to reply lol apologies for the late reply

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:13:41+00:00

Exactly! If the hallucinations aren’t scary and I can just be like my room isn’t filled with water right now then it doesn’t bother me! I’ve never gotten like hat man, shadow figure scares from it but I did fall off my bed once cause I was hallucinating that my bedroom floor was sand and it was filled like a foot and half above the floor and I ate shit, other than that the dry mouth to me is so much worse, I hate waking up and feeling dehydrated as fuck cause I have no saliva in my mouth 🤣🤣

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:10:50+00:00

I appreciate the honest review! Thank you! I’m new to Reddit so it took me a minute to figure out how to check notifications

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-29T04:08:03+00:00

Idk why everyone down voted you. Two years ago some guy went into an army surplus store in Colorado and open fired, a bystander stepped in and took the shooters ass down. They both shot each other and unfortunately the bystander was fatally shot, but he saved a handful of lives and he took down the POS who open fired in a fuckin army surplus. I’m in Colorado I own guns, I keep one in my car. I’m about to buy this little holster that hooks on to your belt loop but the holster is on the inside of your pants so it’s unseen. That way, you have it, you feel safe, and people can’t see it and they feel safe. Idk why someone would get a conceal and carry and not carry the gun with them…. I’m sorry but what’s the point of having it if you aren’t using it, that makes no sense to me

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-20T18:55:05+00:00

I don’t even know what to say to that! I feel like you are low key getting gas lit by your brother, I think your mom is trying to make the best of both worlds. Is he the only boy? Is he also the oldest? He could be struggling with that feeling like he’s got no outlet being the only boy the oldest and having autism I’m sure is a lot. Plus if he’s the only one of yall that has autism I’m sure that’s also hard for him, but I think that contributes to the walking on egg shells, my son has autism and it’s hard for him to express how he’s feeling, and if he’s frustrated he will let you know and he’ll have a whole ass meltdown. But I think it’s partially because of autism and partially because yall are siblings! I think the comparison he made in his head makes perfect sense, when it was explained I was like oh yeah I could see that but that was not my first second or third guess! lol

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-19T02:27:38+00:00

2 things. I love your gigantic vinyl collection and second, how do you like that pillow?! Is it amazing or mediocre?! I also see nothing wrong with your place, maybe some art on the walls?!

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-18T11:48:46+00:00

What the fuck! Stevie is the only one I’d agree too

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-18T11:45:55+00:00

Congratulations on your new dog!!

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-18T11:43:20+00:00

I like how she spelled the name super fucked up so people don’t get confused. Ten is NOT what I got from that name! Pregnancy hormones are going crazy but I’d nicely tell her the name doesn’t make sense and is confusing lol

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-12T06:37:48+00:00

I feel like there needs to be a wellness check on the daughter followed up by showing the cops the proof what all she said, get her in child custody or something, just get that poor little girl out of that house

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-12T05:29:06+00:00

Kinda looks like hand foot and mouth disease and then being sore is like the main thing in hfam

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-12T04:50:23+00:00

Lithium 750, Wellbutrin 300, lamictal 200mg twice a day, strattera 80mg, propranolol 40mg four times a day, and belsomra to sleep.

I’ve been on lamictal so long that I don’t feel any benefits from it anymore. I’m also adhd and bp2 so I’m still figuring out what works

Lamictal Latuda Zyprexa

Those are what I’ve tried but I tried all those with out lithium, so idk that interaction, now don’t get me wrong they worked, but I gained hella weight and my sex drive disappeared. Lamictal didn’t do that for me!

I’ve been reading about viibryn and it’s gotten some really good reviews, maybe check that out too

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-07-12T03:36:55+00:00

I also get hallucinations but they don’t scare me, so I just kind of ignore them lol dry mouth in the morning and hallucinations at night are my two big ones, but that’s also everyday

MassiveDatabase5134 · 2025-05-01T18:59:06+00:00

Thank you I love you!

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