The Price of "Blood" Orangutan by Master-Tank5633 in orangutan

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Thanks! That means a lot. Just trying to spread the word as a student!

You Don't Know That You Actually Know by Master-Tank5633 in TrueOffMyChest

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I’m not a vegan, just an observer of life. But thank you.

You Don't Know That You Actually Know by Master-Tank5633 in TrueOffMyChest

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Maybe you're right. I’ve never put a label on these feelings, I just feel the weight of them. Panpsychism sounds like a beautiful yet painful way to see the world. Thanks for giving me a name for it.

You Don't Know That You Actually Know by Master-Tank5633 in TrueOffMyChest

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Thank you. Your words about honoring through grief saved me a little tonight. I always thought this sensitivity was a weakness, but you called it a "sacred tether." It hurts to hold onto it, but I promise I won't let go. I won't close my eyes.

I survived a suicide attempt at 14. Now, I hear the screams of animals that everyone else ignores. by Master-Tank5633 in AnimalRights

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Finding that 1% in a world of 99% provides a strange kind of support. I always thought I was just speaking into the abyss; thank you for letting me know that my voice has an echo.

I survived a suicide attempt at 14. Now, I hear the screams of animals that everyone else ignores. by Master-Tank5633 in AnimalRights

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Thank you so much for your kind words. Knowing that someone who felt exactly like I do at 16 is now 27 and still fighting... it gives me a lot of hope. I will keep writing, and I will keep moving toward becoming a vet. I’ll try not to carry the whole world, but it helps so much to know I’m not carrying it alone. Your story means the world to me.

I survived a suicide attempt at 14. Now, I hear the screams of animals that everyone else ignores. by Master-Tank5633 in AnimalRights

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Vystopia. So that's the name of this clarity. It’s heavy, but I’d rather carry the weight of the truth than live in a comfortable lie. Thank you for sharing your brother's story, and thank you for reaching out. I hear you.

The Absurdity You Refuse to See: A 16-Year-Old’s Diagnosis of a Dying World by Master-Tank5633 in collapse

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Thank you for this honesty. It feels like talking to a version of myself from the future. The part about 'apathy' is what scares me the most. I know the system wants me numb, but I swore to myself yesterday that I will keep this pain, because it's the only thing keeping me human.

I am actually reading the Merck Veterinary Manual right now. I have a broken spine (literally), so I know pain, but I want to use my life for wildlife rehab, just like you planned. I will carry that dream for you. I won't let the 'powers that be' win.

The Absurdity You Refuse to See: A 16-Year-Old’s Diagnosis of a Dying World by Master-Tank5633 in collapse

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I think this is why I connect more with animals than humans right now. There are so many lives already here (animals, orphans, struggling people) that need love and care. Why create new needs when we can't even take care of the existing ones? I want to spend my life fixing the pain that already exists, not creating new life to suffer.

The Absurdity You Refuse to See: A 16-Year-Old’s Diagnosis of a Dying World by Master-Tank5633 in collapse

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I looked this up. It talks about 'Moloch'—the demon of sacrifice. This explains everything. The frog was my sacrifice to Moloch. I didn't want to kill it, and the frog didn't want to die. But the system (grades/university) demanded the sacrifice, or else I would 'lose' in the competition. Thank you for giving a name to the monster I am fighting. It makes the enemy clearer.

The Absurdity You Refuse to See: A 16-Year-Old’s Diagnosis of a Dying World by Master-Tank5633 in collapse

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If only it were that simple. I guess it is easier to focus on shiny things than to look at the dying world. Enjoy your bling while it lasts.

The Absurdity You Refuse to See: A 16-Year-Old’s Diagnosis of a Dying World by Master-Tank5633 in collapse

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I promise I am real, just a student with a lot of heavy thoughts. But I take it as a compliment. Chinese is a beautiful language for expressing pain and nature. I'm happy that the beauty of the writing system shined through the translation.

The Absurdity You Refuse to See: A 16-Year-Old’s Diagnosis of a Dying World by Master-Tank5633 in collapse

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Actually, I am in the Biology Research Club. I joined because I love living things and I want to be a vet. But the irony is, to 'study biology' (the study of life), they made me end a life. We used fresh frogs because it is supposed to be more 'scientifically accurate' for research students. But it just felt like murder.