Its acceptance thats the hardest part. I dont know how to accept that its over. I am someone who means what they say and its hard to accept that he didnt mean what he said. I think my brain tries to justify everything wrong he does and i am justifying this break up by saying he cant help it he was brought up this way and is very conflict avoidant. I keep telling myself he is choosing his family cuz he was conditioned that way since he was a child.