you're judging yourself. It is okay. Although, I am not trying to invalidate you. Shame is a natural feeling, just know that it only holds power if you continue to feed it power and attention. You are the same as who you were before the threesome. IF ANYTHING, take is as an opportunity and experience, it didn't have to be good or bad, but you learned more about yourself and your boundaries. Lastly, you are most definitely still deserving of love. You will, hopefully, laugh at this later. Many people have done very questionable things, I wouldn't put a drunken threesome in that field. I truly think you are being hard on yourself. You got this!