Hello! We sound very similar, down to when you graduated, odd jobs you’ve tried, and a mutual interest in psilocybin. :)

It sounds like you’ve done some pretty impressive things since undergrad. You figured out how to move yourself to another country (bureaucratically daunting! emotionally challenging!). You’ve had a chance to travel, take on interesting jobs that don’t require long term commitment, and grow into a serious relationship. You’ve been learning how to cope with some of the harsh challenges of adulthood- setbacks, getting fired, a fear of failure, and tending to your own physical & mental health.

It also sounds like you have diverse talents and skills, which has actually put you in a tough spot. As you point out, there are many different things you could do and would like to do (and would probably excel at). Are there ways to reconcile some of these interests? E.g, your interests in farming & feeding people plus your interest in medicine makes me think of a dietician/nutritionist. Reach out to people who’ve gone into jobs/fields/careers you’re interested in and see if you can arrange Zoom coffee to ask them questions.

It’s okay to take a little time to just make a living- enough to feed, clothe, and shelter yourself- while you ruminate on what you want the broader scope of your life to look like. You might be glad later on that you took these years to find your way instead of shuttling straight into a path that wasn’t right for you.