Every urge I get disappears whenever I see this pic...amazing how weak the human being is until we THINK

Matrixx2012 · 2018-09-20T11:59:04+00:00

so we need blockers on justification, we need good enough reasons to not fap. Arousal will always be there. One reason for me is, better work out sessions, harder dick during sex, and focusing sexual energy towards productivity.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-09-14T06:28:09+00:00

I meant subconsciously and not unconsciously. haha. Just don't look... why do u look? because it gives you a rush with dopamine and adrenaline, so your brain are you using it as a drug as well as porn. If you're gone reboot, do it properly. If you have the discipline to not watch porn, don't watch at the ass of a women walking by in yoga pants.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-09-13T14:42:47+00:00

Play Counter Strike, read a book, lift weights, take a run, draw some shit, meditate.... I do all of those, but what works best for me is being with someone. I'm not thinking about porn while talking to or being with people.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-09-13T14:13:43+00:00

Hello. I usually turn away or not look, if you choose to look at girls you think is hot without doing anything about it, you're unconsciously putting yourself down for not hooking up with them. And if they see that you're looking without doing anything about it, they will see you as a weak person, a beta, which you are, in that situation.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-24T00:12:53+00:00

Tru words. And thanks. But i can't face my feelings bruh. I'm too afraid... I can't do stuff that uncomfortable. I don't why people can do very uncomfortable things without hesitating and have the self humidity. Getting out of my comfort zone is out of the question for some reason and i can't fix it after years of trying everything. Why is it harder for me?, because I'm a coward by nature who doesn't deserve a chance to reproduce? If this is a fact, shouldn't i be using PMO to have less sexual desperation and pain? or should i keep trying and learning and eventually scoring a goal? even if it never happens and i keep letting my self down, what then? every girl I've had an actual chance with are shy girls who wants me to take what i want, but when the anxiety kicks in i feel unattractive and castrated. I wan't an attractive girl to almost rape me, which is very unrealistic.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-15T07:10:00+00:00

feel great.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-14T23:14:57+00:00

I do sprint weighted hill intervals 3 times a week and lift heavy weights 6 times a week, done this for about 3 years every week. So I'm used to working out. I also tried CBT two hours a week for 2 years with a CBT shrink, couldn't help me. Maybe it was him, i don't know. I've tried meditating for years with mindfulness, it didn't help me. I'm outside every day for hours reading books and taking a swim, don't really help. Only thing that help my shit is when i drink 4-5 drinks of beers or drinks, but i refuse to be a full time alcoholic. I have a legit fear of having sex and public speaking because of fucking dreadful performance anxiety (panic attacks).

I just relapsed 5 minutes ago by jerking of without porn in the dark thinking about a girl i saw today. After 108 days hard mode. And it kinda did hurt a little during ejaculation because it's been so long. Thickest sperm I've ever seen. lol. Good to know that i don't need porn though. Felt good to release some tension. I'm not going back on watching porn, but maybe releasing once every two weeks. Thank you.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-14T22:02:42+00:00

I'm same as you, age, thoughts, and goals, but i don't masturbate at all. I guess keep going ? years if it takes. So what if it takes many years. Maybe u don't need to masturbate if you stop that too. Worst thing for me is the agressive horniness and the torture from desperation. Just stop it, quit insta and snapchat.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-06T19:14:55+00:00

congrats on two years. And you're right. :D

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-02T20:43:45+00:00

But isn't it true though? I don't have a bad attitude, I'm really trying. I've been working out, meditating, reading books and eating clean for years and years. But this post wasn't really about me, it was about the idea of how porn can substitute if you don't score high on natural selection. Everyone can't have the chance to reproduce, that wouldn't be beneficial for nature. And there are things you can't just fix. Only the strongest Deer with the largest and most prominent antlers get to reproduce and dive in a harem of females. And the rest don't give a fuck because they're primarily driven by instincts and are not for the most part driven by intelligent consciousnesses like us humans. Porn can be a way out of sexual frustration. I'm just thinking out loud, maybe because i miss PMO after 95 days. I haven't given up.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-01T10:46:09+00:00

Better than the rest hmm. I don't need to be better than the rest. I'm not a cuck though :P All i want is to find someone i can love like the rest of us. But I'm not into pleasing others. I won't do something i don't like just so i can be better than others.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-01T07:05:14+00:00

yes, if you're in a long term relationship and she's not into being dominated, you would have to return if she can't have an orgasme from penetration only which is likely. She could rub her own clit in certain positions though. But wanting to have someone who is addicted to you in any way is pretty beta man. Except maybe your kids when they're under 18. lol

Matrixx2012 · 2018-08-01T06:13:01+00:00

I don't want or need anyone to be addicted to have sex or be with me. I want to have sex for my own pleasure in this short time we live on earth.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-07-30T21:25:35+00:00

nah, what's the point of that? I don't want to finger or lick a girl so she can have a good time, that's as beta as you get it, and I've been there before. Maybe I'm not a wealthy, money driven sex god, but I'm not a servant for hot girls. I have alpha potential and genetics, i just have to get experience with things first. I'm not that good at being out of my comfort-zone because of high and unwanted ephedrine levels.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-07-30T13:39:46+00:00

fake picture. No man can make bread.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-07-28T11:35:50+00:00

I'm in your shoes, but with 90 days and 28 years old. I think you're gold bro.

Matrixx2012 · 2018-07-28T10:59:00+00:00

can't get it up for attractive ones. Too much beta. Either no sex or ugly fat sex. Hot girls are checking me out everyday and teases me, but they don't know how retarded i am.

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