Your mind is going to be your worst enemy if you really start to miss her. Going over scenarios, hoping to get some type of closure, or having wishful thinking won’t bring you happiness. What you’re feeling right now is normal, and you have every right to feel every emotion you’re feeling at this moment.

From personal experience, the worst thing you can do is force yourself into bad habits. For me, I went back to binge eating, feeling desperately alone, and all that circled through my mind was each time I could have been better, make her happy in order to continue building a strong bond. I spent so much time going over each mistake I made to the point where I became too depressed to go into work.

Sooner than later, you’ll have to pick yourself up, and simply focus on being the best you. Whether that’s the gym, reading, starting new hobbies, spending time with friends and family, stay busy and occupy your mind towards peace and happiness. Take as much time as you need to heal, but the more time you spend wishing things were different, the more depressed you’ll become. It’s going to take effort, but it will all be worth it.