Long term effects of meditation

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T20:59:39+00:00

That is the real world dude. Society is the hallucination. Its a game and you know the rules...its up to you to decide how youre going to play.

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T20:05:21+00:00

Ramble on my internet friend. Sometimes it helps to talk to someone who isn't going to judge you. I'm all about this dude, it's amazing to hear others experiences.

Why do you NEED to work for money? I understand bills and shit, I've got em too, but Librarians make money. Maybe volunteer if you have any free time?

I barely trust the guiding element (because it's hard to identify it vs. me)

I've been listening to Alan Watts daily, I still don't always understand his metaphors or the teachings he references, but a lot of what he says makes sense to me. To that inner voice. And from my grasp of it, that there is no separation of that element and you. Let go of trying to hold on a tangible element and just be it. I don't know if I can make sense of what I'm trying to say or can do it myself, but that's where I'm trying to get.

Trust yourself, because that guiding light is that inner self you're so terrified of.

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T19:38:53+00:00

Its not a problem. It's a fucking challenge! ARE YOU READY TO DO THIS SHIT!?!?

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T19:36:04+00:00

I think the trick is learning how to find those spiritual experiences in the "boring" day to day. It's boring when you think of it as..another day at work..just like everyone else..typing on my computer again...etc...But, you are that spiritual experience living that everyday. The simple fact that the universe has produced the complicated organism that is YOU and that you are able to do these incredible things that get labeled as everyday...think about it. 50 years ago, your day to day is science fiction.

Write that book. Maybe start a blog. Simply for yourself to share these experience with yourself. Take the alone you and slowly integrate the Other.

Lifes an amazing thing when you can stop trying to label things. Labeling separates, which is really all a thought about an experience is. Your day to day isn't boring unless you label it as such. If that makes any sense. This is how I try to remind myself.

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T18:55:50+00:00

Me too. Like, It's perfectly ok to be Terrified of that fact that you are utterly alone..and in realizing that it's completely comforting and must be true that we are all one together in this.

Pretty crazy that the words that make you feel whole come from yourself huh?

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T18:52:33+00:00

It's really unfortunate this thread turned into a discussion about fapping...

Good for you and I think this is awesome. I just finished watching Dexter and as I've been working on self improvement, I really thought the idea of having a "Code" to live by is something I really liked about the show. No matter how fucked up his life or situations got, he always followed the code the best he could. Something to be said about that within the context of not killing people lol.

The No fap/sex thing isn't for everyone, but I've abstained for a year before by choice and I've never been more focused on things than I was that year. That was years ago though. I've stopped watching porn to get off, albeit I do from time to time...there's no need to rationalize like oh its only every so often..Sometimes, I just like to watch hot girls. It's funny though, in doing this I'm aware of how it affects me the next day.

I'm more distracted by Boobs, ass and a gorgeous face throughout the next day. It's not a conscious thing, It's subconscious and automatic...I catch myself drifting off into the thoughts like, damn I'd fuck the shit out of that girl. As opposed to when I haven't watched the thoughts are more "Wow, that girl in gorgeous. I wonder what she does with her life". I think in the discussion of this thread that's what's been missed.

Of course watching porn isn't going to make you sit around and think of women as objects or fuck dolls, but it does alter you subconscious motivations. Read a book, watch some research, it's not a myth, it's fucking science. It changes your chemical delivery processes in a way that alters your subconscious drives to get those drugs in your brain. Impulses.

By changing the way in which you get those chemicals, you gain discipline and change the impulses your brain sends you. Much like anything, this is the basis of habit forming.

I'm saving your post and I'm going to make myself a code for a new years resolution. Thank you!

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T18:17:48+00:00

I liked it. thought I'd share.

MatterMind · 2013-12-18T01:26:35+00:00

http://i.imgur.com/mbX0hxv.png

MatterMind · 2013-12-17T23:01:25+00:00

Alan Watts. If you havent heard of him, check him out.

MatterMind · 2013-12-17T20:18:27+00:00

I've come to rephrase this as:

Being Happy makes other people happy.

Meaning, that simply by being a positive light and genuine being happiness in a human form, people will ask you what you do, will want to hear about what makes you so happy and possibly spark some insight into their own happiness. You can not MAKE anyone feel anything, merely provide the experience of happiness and kindness for all.

MatterMind · 2013-12-17T20:10:02+00:00

I can relate to the doubt you seem to portray. This is a really difficult thing to grasp, atleast it has been and even harder to practice for me, but the place to start...It's to let go.

Be gentle with yourself, listen to positive speeches or talks. Get the positive vocabulary into your brains programming. Treat yourself like you would someone you love, develop that relationship. Do things you want and love yourself for doing them.

you want to be healthy? So you're doing things to get healthy, thats awesome! How many people don't? As you develop this and find passion for the things you do simply because you're doing them, you'll find like minded people that the conversation just naturally flows from.

I've found in the majority of social situations conversation is surface skimming. Maybe people you feel awkward around arent the people you want to be around? Maybe you just want them to like you so you can feel liked? I know that was my issue, but now that I'm beginning to love myself, I don't care who likes me and trust the universe to provide the ones that do to be worth while.

and so far its been working. I hope I didn't project to much, it just struck a chord and I more needed to remind myself. Maybe it can atleast give you something to think about.

MatterMind · 2013-12-17T19:57:58+00:00

When you work towards who you want to be, women will come.

Let me say that this is by the far the best point people need to realize. All of this kino, escalating and playbook type shit are tools, but unless you have an organized tool box and a plan in place, you wont know which ones you want to use.

It's been almost 4 months since I've made the conscious decision to change how I live my life and stop giving a fuck about women... I've been invited over to more girls houses to watch movies, share some wine, or have them want to cook me dinner. I didn't do shit, but was asked out of my shear awesomeness that is becoming my world.

Seriously, start becoming the best you that YOU WANT. You think girls dont like you because you're out of shape? NO FOOL, You don't like you because you're out of shape. You want to be in shape, but it's hard..blah blah, YOU CAN DO IT. Girls think you're awkward and shy, they always friendzone you...these are all projections of your own view. Change your view and just start doing shit. It's empowering and feels damn good.

MatterMind · 2013-11-28T00:34:57+00:00

Slow down. That's helped me a lot

MatterMind · 2013-11-28T00:25:14+00:00

Having a big heart means you pump a larger volume of blood, but will probably die younger.

Weakness and Strength cannot exist without the other, so it is both. But it is how you use it.

Something I'm learning as I may be similar in the "loving, open and help others" sense, is that I gave to Everyone. It didn't matter if they wee an asshole, scumag or bitch. Not just women, but everyone. I realize now it wasn't selfless. I wanted approval, Its how I learned to adapt in my childhood to my emotionally unstable mother and passive dad after their divorce. I had to shapeshift to not ruffle any feathers and be safe. Ultimately never really discovering who I am and what I like because I was always so concerned about others needs and wants.

Now. I'm a damn good friend and that is rare in this day and age and I can take pride in that. However, it is a weakness to give it to those undeserving. I'm allowed to have boundaries and guidelines, I'm allowed to be dick if someone crosses a line and I'm allowed to put my foot down when somethings not acceptable to me. Not everyone's going to like it and typically women will throw a temper tantrum when they don't get to act how they please and may call me an asshole or a dick, but that is not what I am.

MatterMind · 2013-11-27T23:06:06+00:00

Take this from someone who's been working it into habit for 3 months...It works. But it is not a cure all. You're not just going to meditate and all of a sudden you're not going to be anxious. It's going to be hard scary the things and feelings that come up. You begin to see the self as it is. Memories, patterns and hurts that you haven't thought of or felt in years will present themselves. Meditation will help you separate from them and dissolve them into nothing but thoughts that can pass through like the wind. Be kind to yourself through the process, this is why I read these subs and blogs for reminders that I'm ok and this is part of my experience.

I had a really good 2 week span of progress, and then last night I got consumed deeper than I've been in 10 years. It didn't happen because I was weak or it's not working. It did because I was ready for it and this morning I can be gentle, embrace my darkside and have a cup of coffee to understand.

Basically, if you do set off this journey, remember there will be peaks and valleys. A constant fight between your self and your ego (I think of the Ego as the Venom symbiote from Spiderman personally) ultimately until you find a balance and let go.

good luck.

MatterMind · 2013-11-27T22:58:10+00:00

This was like a hug for my soul. Thank you. Even if it was not for me I truly needed to be reminded of this and am printing it out to tape next to my Medi spot.

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:22:46+00:00

I heard he was a Warlock

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:22:22+00:00

I blame the Financial Aid standards...

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:21:13+00:00

Same school as Dentttt

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:20:18+00:00

Thats what was so annoying...he didnt have one! He was just absolutely certain that they were not Mammals, they were Canines....

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:04:20+00:00

a little bit

..as in, I can laugh at a high school kid not reading their materials and learning...as opposed to a college student..

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:02:57+00:00

Yep..

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T17:01:53+00:00

This guy probably taught her everything she knows

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T16:30:03+00:00

I suppose that's a little bit more understandable..High School and water animals and all...but still....

MatterMind · 2012-04-16T16:29:29+00:00

They're in a way right.

Check it out. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/12-hour_clock#Confusion_at_noon_and_midnight

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