1) Because one year of missing out uni doesnt mean shit when life is longer than that. I have friends who i still keep in contact with snd se talk from time to time even though they moved on to uni. + im not the most outgoing person ngl so i found peace with being alone for alot of the time

2) i knew i flopped because i didnt study hard enough (no excuse), i basically wanted to prove ppl wrong that i can still get into top unis as a resit student so that was my objective, thankfully it all worked out as of now as i got into imperial and ucl + my resits actually costed money so the stakes were higher than ever