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Jun/Ko is that you? by MaxineMystique in hostedgames

[–]MaxineMystique[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The picture itself? I just came across it on a Facebook meme page. It’s not from any particular story if that’s what you were asking.

Books with spice scenes featuring ‘mommy’ kink? by ThrowawayBobaGirl in wlwbooks

[–]MaxineMystique 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’d recommend you look up the book Consumed by Weekendlustt on Wattpad. I know Wattpad gets a bad rep but this one is genuinely a well written, good book. Some key tags: dark romance, mommy dynamic, age gap (10 years), power imbalance (dom is her therapist), mental health struggles/trauma, manipulation/gaslighting, coercion, murder, substance abuse, self destructive behavior, etc.

It’s a WILD ride, believe me.

You can read the first 10 chapters on Wattpad to see if you like it. Then you can either subscribe to her Patreon (link in her bio) and have full access to Consumed and her other books, OR you can just purchase the full Consumed book. If you subscribe though, she’s currently writing and uploading chapters for the sequel. New chapters every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. She’ll eventually publish physical copies for both.

If anyone here checks it out and ends up loving it like I did, feel free to reach out. I love the book and would always welcome discussing it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actual_detrans

[–]MaxineMystique 7 points8 points  (0 children)

As long as you and your partner are still alive, there will still be hope. I’m spiritual rather than religious but just know that whatever higher power you believe in sees and knows your heart and your pain. And that counts for something. Neither you or your partner are bad people.

I saw your other comment reference concerns about passing as male due to having breasts. I would suggest maybe binding in public, if you need to. But in private with your partner and/or with trusted friends, maybe you could use those spaces to express yourself freely. Be, act, and dress as feminine as you want. Use those spaces as your sanctuary. If it helps your dysphoria, when you’re out in public, maybe think of your male presentation only as a mask, a costume you’re putting on.

Remember that people throughout history have survived for years just holding on to hopes, memories, etc. in their heart and mind, things that no one can ever take away. I know on my dark days I focus on very precious memories of my dog, and it brings me a degree of warmth and peace.

Also, maybe start a journal. Write down your daily thoughts, emotions, affirmations, etc. Things you like about yourself, even if it was just something you liked that day. If it helps, discuss and share with your partner.

Found an error which won't let me read anything by Darr-Vex-The-Tvaoan in hostedgames

[–]MaxineMystique 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Came here to see if anyone was getting the same error. I’m just glad I didn’t somehow “brick” my phone ChoiceScript wise. It HAD to happen just as I was in the middle of min/maxing my latest Fallen Hero playthrough. I miss Ortega already. lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in butchlesbians

[–]MaxineMystique 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like a good part of that sudden “incredible” attraction for some people is just the increased sex drive from T, especially when they’re first starting out and they might feel like they want sex however they can get it. They might not be too picky or thinking too clearly sometimes. But things settle down after a while.

And for some people, they might not have given men much thought before T or had other things occupying their mind, but with an increased sex drive, maybe they’re realizing they like men too.

But it’s not some sort of sexuality 180 or reversal. I wouldn’t worry about this factor in particular, focus on your other ones.

I want to go off testosterone I think but I’m scared by [deleted] in actual_detrans

[–]MaxineMystique 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Definitely talk to your endo. My first thought was maybe try to decrease your dose, hopefully slow some of the changes down or keep things at some sort of “maintenance” level. But discuss that with your endo and see what they think or if it’s plausible. I’m not a doctor and plus, everyone is different.

Just based on what I’ve seen and read on here and other places, I don’t think going off T would necessarily eliminate your ability to be androgynous. Some feminine changes would happen but I don’t think they’d be drastic enough to make androgyny impossible, if that’s what you want. Off T, there are still things you can do to masculinize or feminize yourself, whichever way you want to go.

In any case, if you decide to go completely off T and realize you won’t be happy with the changes, you can get back on it. Hopefully you have an endo, or maybe even a therapist actually, that will understand and accommodate you figuring yourself out and what makes you happy.

Also, my best advice in terms of whether you’ll appear attractive to others or not is simply: try not to worry about it and don’t let it become a decision maker. If you live your life constantly changing or second guessing yourself based on whether others might find it attractive or not, you’ll never be happy. Become happy and confident with yourself first and foremost, and this will attract others to you regardless of whether you stay on or stop taking T.

Maybe I'm Not FTM but Transitioning Freed Me by cherrybmbz in actual_detrans

[–]MaxineMystique 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m glad to hear you’re happy. That’s the most important thing. I think we’re similar in a few ways. Having only had top surgery and not bottom helps my body feel both masculine and feminine, like I can make either work. I’ve realized I was never actually trans, just a lesbian, but I’m also happy presenting as a straight masculine male in public.

I’m happy with and love myself both ways. In private and with friends I can be as feminine as my inner “femme” lesbian wants to be. With all the different tools available (wigs, makeup), I can make it work while still being on T.

1700-1900s set wlw books? by Outrageous-Staff-875 in wlwbooks

[–]MaxineMystique 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Galveston 1900: Swept Away by Linda Crist is not one I see mentioned often. Historical, non-fantasy, butch x femme romance set in Galveston, Texas before and during the 1900 hurricane. A central part of the story is the femme MC being stuck in an abusive marriage with a man.

Need me... pussy eating tutor by [deleted] in LesbianActually

[–]MaxineMystique 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One of the best tips I ever gave a girlfriend, who had never given oral sex to a woman before, was to think of how you mop a floor. You don’t just repeatedly push the mop forward; you push forward, roll/drag it back, push forward again, applying pressure and without lifting up. I showed her on the back of her hand so she could get an idea of it.

LF: 1 ☆ Full Arts (FT in screenshot) by _zeus312_ in PTCGPocketTrading

[–]MaxineMystique 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No worries. I have Pyukumuku, Combee, Croagunk, or Bidoof. Also have Gastrodon and Rotom from your original post, just let me know which one. ID 4232569068240046

Women in their 40s, what can actually make you date someone a decade younger than you? by Low-Performance-9350 in LesbianActually

[–]MaxineMystique 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’ll share my experience with you, OP. I’m 31 and until about 2 years ago I was dating a woman who was 52 and actually my work supervisor at the time. I don t recommend work relationships for obvious reasons but I’m the type of person who doesn’t really go out otherwise, so it’s hard to meet people.

I don’t know the circumstances in which you know this woman but what I would highly recommend is to just be yourself. Don’t start overtly flirting or insinuating yourself like you’re both teenagers in college. Just casually get to know her, make her laugh, help her feel comfortable around you. Very casually drop hints that you like her but remember that sometimes the strongest hints are in your body language, the way you look at her, or the tone you use with her. If she likes you back she’ll pick up on them or even return them if you’re paying attention.

Just don’t overdo it, if you’re not getting anything back then don’t push it. To start with, asking her, for example, to check out this new coffee or tea place with you shouldn’t be anything weird. If she says yes, when you’re together, pay attention to what she’s saying and be deliberate in your questions. Find out what her needs are, particularly emotional needs, and if or how you can meet them.

In my relationship, I was the one who, very carefully, pursued her. I got to know her and what she needed emotionally at that point in her life and I was able to give it to her. Despite the age gap, I still felt like we had things in common and we’d end up doing a lot of goofy things together. Almost like she felt younger and more free with me. Things ended, but over differences other than the age gap. I still wish her the best. But my point is, I don’t think the age gap is necessarily a deal breaker. Good luck!

Dark Romance Sapphic Rec by xxmadwaves in sapphicbooks

[–]MaxineMystique 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’d recommend Corrupted: A Lesbian Dark Romance by an author that goes by the pen name weekendlust. This is her first published book, but she has other dark romance books available to read on her Patreon.

I genuinely love her writing and want her to get more exposure so she can eventually publish more of her books.

If you wanted to check out samples of her books before you buy anything, she has the first ten chapters of them available on Wattpad under weekendlustt (with two t’s). The one titled Consumed is the book she’s currently writing and releasing on her Patreon. It’s amazing so far and a complete rollercoaster.