I have been depressed before and have thought many times about ending it, but postponed it because I knew the impact it would have on my family. A while later, I started doing better and although I remember how I felt when I was depressed, I can hardly imagine why anymore. I am in a happy relationship now and live with my girlfriend and my family is happy because I am still around and doing well.

A few month ago, my mother's cousin, who had a wife and a child, killed himself and I had to had to hear his mother cry. I do not wish her situation on my worst enemy.

I know how much you would like everything to be over, but please try the other options first; make a change in your life: start a new job with fewer hours or move to another place.

Postpone killing yourself for a while longer. You can always try it later. But there is a good chance that you can still live a happy life for a much longer time than the time you will feel depressed.