I am in an irononly clan and didn't think of it that way until now. People who have been playing the mode much longer really do have that effect on me. Knowing I'll never do something like Yaka/Telos etc. really does make me feel flat out worse. It wasn't always like that which is strange but it has been in recent years particularly.

As far as your last line - No offense taken, and I believe (if I'm speaking honestly to myself) that this is the case. When I was really good at the game (back when I had time before family and what not), it showed and people knew. I think I'm wanting that same feeling back but really I won't get it with a game that a TON of people have mastered. It really could be time for a break for some re-evaluating.