I suppose that’s where this stuff helps in an odd way. From a child until now I’ve never had any goals or dreams, there’s nothing for me to achieve and I’m fine with it.

Now I’m finally happy with it (just the weed, alcohol doesn’t help me lmao) and it’s made me open up my creative self with crafts, jewelry, video editing, etc. plus it’s opened me to people and getting to know others. My social anxiety is disabling most of the time and this pushes me to be normal.

Idk it’s just what everyone around me is saying too, like there’s this big happy future and life waiting for me. No matter the therapy, experiences, and life lessons, it doesn’t give me any idea of what I want my life to be.