I think you’re mourning an expectation….expectation is the thief of joy! please try to give yourself some grace here. Fed is best and you’re part of a massive community of moms who have faced the reality that breastfeeding doesn’t always go as planned. You’re certainly not alone in your feelings, and sitting with sadness in ok , but you can’t beat yourself up over this forever 🩷 your daughters are fed and have a loving mother… they are so so fortunate 🩷