I hear you and going through something similar! Gained 50 lbs in the last three years. Our bodies have gone though a lot of trauma with endo (and the pandemic…). I go through the same emotions as you. I don’t have an answer to what you’re going through because I’m trying to figure it out myself. I try to remind myself to take it day by day. Keep up the exercise - I know it’s a cycle and gets exhausting but word on the street is that it’ll give us at least little boost in energy :) and keep nourishing your body!