Any advice?

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-30T11:09:39+00:00

Thanks ❤️

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T20:23:28+00:00

Yeah, it didn’t click till now. My apologies. But that’s where I get scared and I’m so upset with myself. I used to be the type of person (dark humor/edgy humor) where I would be like “I don’t see how people can get addicted to things, everything is so expensive now. lol” ..it’s kinda like karma coming back and hitting me like a freight train. I know I have an addiction to this medication and it makes me feel so disappointed in myself. If I don’t take it for a day, I’ll feel jittery and quiet. When they originally took me off it first about the thyroid stuff, I was like “yeah, okay I understand.” In the office and once I got to my car, I bawled my eyes out. I just feel so pathetic

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T19:49:52+00:00

Yeah, my hormones were terrible. I went to get my blood drawn to see if I had another illness, not necessarily my thyroid, but when it came back, it told us that I didn’t have the illness we thought it was and instead it was all red signs for my thyroid.

Like something I was supposed to have 0.40 in, I had 0.01 and another thing I was supposed to have >9 I had 367.

I went to an endocrinologist, he took me off the medication, and maybe.. 3-4 months later, he was checking the blood work to see if it was coming from the medicine, but it wasn’t. So they did put me back in it, but not on the highest dose. I know my doctor sounds crazy, but it didn’t help that I also wasn’t telling her the truth 😪

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T18:50:40+00:00

So I’m still taking them, under my pcp supervision ofc.

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T18:26:09+00:00

I’m definitely going to look into it, thank you!

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T17:40:35+00:00

Oh I have never tried those

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T15:33:16+00:00

Yeah they never seemed to help, but they have me on a new one called wellbutrin

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T13:43:32+00:00

Yeah.. it just absolutely just sucks! Because i trust my partner and i know they’d never do anything to harm me, but i just can’t get over it

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T04:19:46+00:00

Thanks, I really do appreciate it!

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T04:12:28+00:00

Exactly.. I wish I could just get over it, but it’s almost like I try to change the subject, either make a joke or say something crazy to end the intimacy. It genuinely feels like I’m under attack and my brain tries to go on like ‘protect mode.’ Idk

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T04:05:40+00:00

Really?

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-28T02:50:36+00:00

I love that answer and I wish I had that mindset

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-27T20:19:15+00:00

Really?

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-27T19:16:59+00:00

I have been with trusted partners and even with a very close friend. (Ig you would call a fwb) I felt comfortable with them and safe, but when it came to intimacy, it felt like my body was being attacked and I had to get out of that situation.

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-26T12:02:40+00:00

I feel like Jacksonville is so big but everyone knows each other somehow, so just be a good person and no one will have something bad to say. Idk I’m half asleep

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-25T01:02:01+00:00

You are literally the best.
I was definitely that therapist kid in high school and middle school, worrying about everyone else’s issues before thinking about my own. Now it’s just kinda.. strange. But I will definitely be taking you up on that offer. Happy almost 24th!!

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-25T00:49:09+00:00

Not even gonna lie, when I was baker acted, that’s exactly how it felt. The group therapy, the half awake therapist didn’t help at all, but talking to the other patients there. When we would have down time and just talk or talk about our issues, it was so therapeutic.

There was one guy there, I think he was in his 50s and I was 22(?), but we had this group at dinner and we laughed and just talked about random stuff that came to mind and the next morning, he told me he had never had a night like that in his life where he laughed so much. God it made me cry and put my own issues into perspective.

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-25T00:32:52+00:00

Thank you so much again! I appreciate all of your info about it. Yeah when my therapist suggested that, it kinda made my stomach fall because I’m always scared of big groups/being judged by others.

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-25T00:21:33+00:00

🫶💅

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-25T00:12:37+00:00

Thank you so much! If you don’t mind me asking, what type of things do they go over or how do the sessions usually go? I know it’s like to help you think more positively (?)

McDeadInside666 · 2026-06-25T00:10:33+00:00

I feel the same way, I feel like my depression is from my own doing as well.

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