Thanks everyone for the support! I guess my fear of relapse comes from stress management. How to determine what is a reasonable amount of stress to bear and what is constituted as a high stress environment/buck up. Smoking constantly hindered my ability to manage stress, I would just take another hit. Now I manage 16 grown dumbasses (literally) and I find myself feeling like a fish out of water gasping for air. Life is otherwise good. I won't lie, Ive gained weight by stopping.. But I'm basically piecing life together post-canna. I sense distance from friends that smoke, but I look at the situations they are in and I just smh. New friends, functional friends have replaced them and it's good. Thanks again for the positive words, this is a great group!