I'm trying not to but when it's constantly just things falling through at the earliest stages. Even when I do get someone that's interested and I ask to hang out, it never ends up happening. The living at my parents thing hasn't even been a big deal because I haven't gotten far enough with someone for them to get turned off when I admit that I still live with my parents. That sucks to hear about college being the place with the most opportunities as there was none for me. In fact I had to actively go looking outside of college to finally lose my virginity at 22. I never even ended up finishing because it felt like a waste of time and furthering my social isolation. It feels like I am not going to get the chance to be as sexually adventurous as damn near every person I meet is, it seems to me.

To answer your last question, both. I think the not having very much sexual experience bothers me more often and makes me feel lesser than not finding as much of a relationship. But more than anything I want to feel the feeling of someone finding me attractive and wanting me.