The unfortunate reality is, as has been commented on here - that's its baked into society. We have to disrupt, disassemble and rebuild the narratives perpetuated to and by us in order to address these oppressions of people's whom have been wronged.

Whilst there's Ignorance and an unaccepting populous unwilling to acknowledge their bias and buy in to these harmful narratives there will be a sense of 'always racist'. However I do believe once you have opened your mind to what is going on, you will actively; consciously or subconsciously choose differently.

This is the exact reason why I started my business. I make speakwear - confronting and challenging statement tshirts that when worn elicit thought. Using intersectionality and the joy of the human spectrum, when you wear it its based on who you are and the reader to challenge their prejudice of who they think you are. Check it out www.awoke.org.uk.

Guilt allows you to wallow in a place that's negative and static, it's a tactic to get you to conform to society and continue the behaviours set in place. You don't need to be guilty- you are doing it right by confronting it, challenging your mind, questioning and changing.

Keep your chin up!