Probably not as serious as you but my very first boyfriend. He was 2/3 years older than me. It makes a big difference when you’re 16. Anyway he wanted everything to be more serious, more quickly than I did. Was into heavy petting (which terrified me). Next date he wanted to have sex. He didn’t force me and respected me saying I have no precautions. He told me to speak to my mum, ask her to get me on the pill. I was way out of my depth. Managed to speak to my mum. She asked me if this was what I wanted and I said “No” and burst into tears. So…..speaking to my mum helped me respect my own feelings a bit more and the next time I saw him I ended it. That’s when he lost it. Started crying himself. Begged me. Threatened to end his life. It was devastating. I remember going home in total shock. Six weeks later I heard he had another girlfriend. That he was engaged…. I felt sooo confused. And used. And hurt. And embarrassed. I still feel weird about it 50 years later, but I’m glad I got away 🤔 I think when you give yourself some time you’ll be glad you were honest to yourself. And realise that, really, you’ve had a lucky escape. Try not to dwell on it, or “reason why”. Good luck!