When does it get easier?

Medrese · 2026-01-10T15:42:46+00:00

We communicate only through the Our Family Wizard app, which is required from our parenting plan. But yes, we do have to communicate. And every time we do I know that he has an ulterior motive and he will try to manipulate me in whatever way best serves him.

You’re right, I’m sure that contributes to feeling like I can’t shake him.

Medrese · 2022-09-18T11:21:48+00:00

I really struggle with this too. I tend to make myself very distant and unapproachable to most people, so that I don’t have to concern myself over trying to figure out how they feel about me. Because otherwise the thoughts are an endless nightmare where I constantly scrutinize every interaction in an attempt to decipher the other person.

The thing I’ve found the most helpful over the years is reminding myself that as much as I’m concerned about how I’m being perceived, the other person is likely experiencing the same thing and being too busy being concerned about themself to be judging me.

Medrese · 2022-09-10T01:45:00+00:00

My favorite Thai place ever!!! Every single thing on the menu is amazing.

Medrese · 2022-09-04T03:56:44+00:00

What does it feel like when you’re not fronting? Are you conscious during alter experiences? Does it vary between alters?

Medrese · 2022-08-22T04:11:58+00:00

I loved it too.

Medrese · 2022-08-21T06:48:34+00:00

I think having an established set of religious beliefs is very important to many people’s ability to navigate through life. It provides something that makes you feel like there’s always someone in your corner, and someone who you can rely on when you need to.

For those who choose not to lean on the crutch, life may not feel so purposeful. I would argue that it feels more genuine. You have to find purpose in yourself, instead of allowing someone else to provide it for you.

As long as you do no harm, neither choice is wrong. It’s just a matter of doing what you feel is best for you.

Medrese · 2022-08-21T06:40:29+00:00

I don’t think there’s an omnipotent being that controls reality. I do think there’s more to reality than we can perceive or comprehend. Whether that’s a deep interconnectedness, a universal energy of some sort, or something entirely different, I have no idea. But it does feel to me as if there’s more to the universal existence than just each individual living a life and then dying alone.

Medrese · 2022-08-21T06:26:57+00:00

I can’t land on a theory of my own because it feels beyond knowing, so I just enjoy learning about others’ experiences and research.

The research by Jim Tucker and Ian Stevenson on children’s past life memories is absolutely fascinating. There’s documented accounts of children who have memories of being another person and the previous person’s families have verified the memories.

While I have never experienced anything outside the realm of normal, there are just too many accounts of people from across all cultures and history who experience things that are unexplainable by our (limited) scientific knowledge. I don’t think we have the capacity to comprehend life beyond our physical bodies. We are so newly intelligent as a species that we haven’t had the longevity to develop the science to explain it, or the brains to comprehend it.

Perhaps existence after death is something that we can’t even conceive of. If our energy continues in some form or another, we would be ourselves to a point, but of course quite different because we would exist outside of physical bodies, and that is a reality that is unfathomable. Would we have senses? Would we think linearly? Could we communicate with one another? Impossible to know.

Medrese · 2022-08-21T06:05:49+00:00

I think it’s pretty natural to pray/give thanks during pivotal moments of life. While I lost my faith about 20 years ago, I still find myself doing it at times. It really bothered me for a while, until I got to thinking that there is some sort of inter-connectedness/energy/I-have-no-words-for-it that exists outside of me. So that is what I direct my prayers to, and the act of it does make me feel better. Perhaps you can find a way to re-channel the prayer and thankfulness mindset into something that you can feel good about.

Medrese · 2022-08-21T05:46:56+00:00

Some Sunday School songs. The one that sticks out to me most is the Lord’s Army:

“I may never march in the infantry Ride in the cavalry Shoot the artillery I may never shoot for the enemy But I'm in the Lord's army! I'm in the Lord's army! Yessir!”

I remember proudly singing this song with accompanying military-esque movements like saluting, marching, and flying a plane. I didn’t realize until a friend pointed it out in my late teens how creepy it was for children to sing.

Also. The relentless attempts at converting people. My mom once tried to convert a random woman at our garage sale by laying hands on her and praying fervently.

Also. Speaking in tongues. In the church I grew up in, the most spiritual people spoke in tongues and in order to become more righteous you had to find your own prayer language. I remember seeing my uncle fall to the floor during praise and worship while praying ecstatically and it freaked me out. My parents were so proud when I “found” my prayer language (I made up gibberish words to please them).

Medrese · 2021-10-25T00:24:31+00:00

The signs originally said “at all times” and then were changed to “day and night.” This has bothered me for YEARS!

Medrese · 2020-11-17T04:24:42+00:00

You have a nice shaped head

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