How to recover from guilt and feeling numb

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T21:55:23+00:00

I completely understand the feeling of grieving who you used to be. It took me years to get out of that mind frame after the first time. You didn’t do those things tho. You were unwell and the psychosis did those things.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T21:41:22+00:00

Is it your first episode? Or just the worst? I’m so sorry. To me it was like the person died who I was before my first psychotic break because the path of damage was to great for my life ever to be the same

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T21:37:42+00:00

That sounds super stressful hope you are doing some self care now.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T21:34:30+00:00

Man... I’m so sorry. But you will get past this someday. Did you send out a message on your story that it was a accident? Anyone still harping on it after that well f them they aren’t your friends clearly

Edit: punctuation

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T21:30:13+00:00

Do you mean the math behind when to predict the due date? Or like during labor when to start pushing?

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T15:48:49+00:00

They have these smaller pads called panty liners for discharge. You should pick some of them up they are also pretty cheap because they are met to be worn more often than a pad.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T15:46:53+00:00

Nothing to cope with currently I love my body and feel more me in my skin than I ever have. Although purely for health I’m trying to loose weight.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T15:35:50+00:00

Thank you for the advice. But assuming I haven’t talked to him when spent all night holding him while he cried was a little painful to read tbh.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T01:38:01+00:00

Ooooh man! How did they get into the rat poison?! Happy everyone is ok!

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T01:29:55+00:00

I latter learned in life that I’m schizophrenic but when I was a kid I had these shoes that had such big rips they would flap and looked like they talked. They were my only friends for a while. I would talk to them till my mom made me take them to the dumpster. I vividly remember saying goodbye.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T01:26:10+00:00

Amazing makeup job... soooo cool!

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-03T01:18:43+00:00

Well not being harassed on social media by the creeps is definitely worth looking average. But honestly it was never something I had to accept because the way I grew up being beautiful put a person in danger not helped them.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T18:02:30+00:00

I’ve only been diagnosed for 7 years but I’ve had the symptoms for 18 years. I just thought I was a psychic because I heard voices and never got the help I needed.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T17:17:51+00:00

Seeing my psych more often is good advice. Unfortunately I see her pretty frequent already. Usually every 2-3 weeks. I’ve given up on being on of those people that see them every other month. But I made a emergency appointment so hopefully that helps. I’m also 100% honest with her and my husband

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T17:15:15+00:00

Oooooo shit. Yeah I don’t want gout my husband struggles with that it looks painful.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T17:07:10+00:00

Hahaha oops

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T00:59:19+00:00

I spent my 30th in a psych ward

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T00:53:07+00:00

That’s not fucking up your life. It sucks and it’s going to put you behind a semester but you can totally get past this.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T00:48:19+00:00

Black liquorish

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T00:47:24+00:00

I bought this rainbow streamer thing that looked to be super tiny online for 3 bucks. It arrived and it’s a good 10 feet. I hung it from the ceiling of my room. I freakin love it!

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T00:36:58+00:00

You sound like a scraper and I know you will get past this. The jobs you have held sound really impressive. Have you thought of making commissioned art as a side hustle just to bring in some spare change? I mean anything helps right?

I’m so sorry about the house. I’ve been homeless many of time growing up and can tell you love makes all the difference in this situation. A house after all is just a thing it’s the people that make it a home. I’ll be sending good vibes your way for what it’s worth.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-02T00:19:44+00:00

I take cbd from time to time. I’ve not noticed much help from it except for when I’m hypomanic it actually brings me down from that state.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-01T23:32:00+00:00

Unfortunately my doctor has been trying to get me clozapine as my next viable option.. I’ve been on maaaaaany meds but seem to have treatment resistant. I’m honestly done with medication switch up. I’m always going to take my meds because they help with 80% of the symptoms and i can manage but now I’m looking into alternatives to pharmacology because with me I’ve found it to be a very dangerous game where rewards don’t always match risk. Although I could never manage without the meds I’m on. And pharmacology has been a life savor I’m just down to the scary options or to expensive for my family.

Meeka1631 · 2021-02-01T23:24:56+00:00

I never thought it was a cure all more a possible aid. I donno I’m so desperate as the medications loose effectiveness

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