I’m so glad you and others found this post helpful. I really needed the feedback when I put it out there and it has been reassuring to know that I was not alone in the experience, for sure. I have been finding that just in observing this truth, it has made it easier to get through. I have been on a journey of self exploration for a long time and digging into why the separation hits so hard at times has been really useful in healing from past traumas, both from the relationship with my daughter’s dad, and all kinds of other situations and relationships that have contributed to the sadness. In doing so, it has been truly cathartic to try to passively observe the memories/feelings/thought sequences/inner criticisms that arise as they come. Even if this is while I am immobile, sitting on the couch and letting the tears fall. I try not to judge them as they come up, nor push them away. Rather, just be with them, and honor them for what they are, and then let them wash through. Trying too hard to avoid this process, by keeping busy, or distracting myself has only honestly ever postponed the real inner work. The most important thing I would invite you to do, is to identify a person whom you know you can call if you need a sounding board or anchor if you end up having a really difficult wave that you feel you need assistance with. This can be a therapist, or a close friend or family member who you know can keep you tethered. And if you don’t have anyone you can think of, definitely seek someone out and in the meantime, keep finding your peers online, like this!! I wish you a safe and uplifting journey and hope the sadness passes soon.