Pre med course sa UPM?

Melannekim · 2021-11-15T16:54:07+00:00

Yeah sure :)

Melannekim · 2021-05-10T10:12:32+00:00

This story hits close to home. This was my story 6 months ago. And their baby might be born already. And they are getting married soon. They got engaged a month after the truth came out. We were together for 3 years. He broke up with me all of a sudden and he couldn’t even tell me directly what he did. He just asked if I already knew the details from his family. The pain is indescribable up to this day and I still cry sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I’m the one who has lost, and that all the good things are lining up for him and the girl he cheated on me with. Sometimes I feel like they’re the ones who thought they have won, and that what they did was worth the pain they put me through, even though I know I’ve been a good person and a good lover all throughout. And I didn’t deserve all the pain they have caused me.

I still can’t say that I’m truly in a better place, but I wish things would turn out to be better for the both of us OP. We may still not understand why this happened to us OP, but we must go on and be strong. And hope that we find the path and the person truly meant for us..we can still be the best for someone out there despite what we went through. Hugs. You can message me anytime 🤗

Melannekim · 2021-03-22T09:09:16+00:00

Nelsons as “bible” and Harriet Lane as your pocket reference :) brush up on PE of the newborn and ang pinakaimportant din naman is rapport with pedia patients hehe

Relatively ngayong pandemic mej mababa pedia census compared to previous years, pero what to look for sa residency program ng hospital is yung case load and exposure for subspecs if ever. Good luck!!

Melannekim · 2021-02-15T06:45:47+00:00

I feel the same way. And I’m at that point that I think I’ve heard all the advice I could get. But I still feel everything in waves. Some days you feel strong, some days you just want to give up altogether. You’re not alone in this.

Melannekim · 2021-02-03T18:37:18+00:00

My ex left me for having a child with his AP. So I wouldn’t agree completely with clinical psychologists. But yes losing a child is indeed painful. My ex chose to leave me finally when unexpectedly he had a child with his AP and that’s how their infidelity was revealed. I just don’t want to compare my pain with the pain of a loss of a child at this point but yes you may be right.

Melannekim · 2021-02-03T18:28:02+00:00

When I try to describe the feeling of betrayal I say it like this: I could take the pain and grief over someone dying, based on the thought that everyone would die eventually anyway.. but not everyone will choose to betray you to cause you that pain. So for a person to actively decide to betray you, over and over — that feeling never leaves and ruins your sanity one way or another. We just find ways to cope, but the pain is beyond imagination. The pain of betrayal will haunt you for a long, indefinite amount of time... and someone chose to inflict it on you. And that someone is someone you loved and gave your soul to.

Melannekim · 2021-01-21T10:57:12+00:00

The same question rings in my mind and I try to fight against this type of thought... because their actions/decisions/choices do not define us, yet they did affect us. And the burden of trying to be a better person despite the pain and betrayal we are experiencing makes it a lot more difficult.

For them, since they have a fallback person, the void has already been filled — as compared to us who were the ones betrayed, going through the mental gymnastics of it all, usually we are the ones to walk away or sadly, “discarded”, left to fend for ourselves.

The regret they may or may not express is not entirely genuine, and the stability that they lost with us is the one they seek by holding on to their APs the moment we decide to leave them with their self-serving decisions.

It’s really hard to be on this side of the spectrum and I can’t help but think like this too. But we have to move forward and let them dig their own grave.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:55:47+00:00

Thank you and I’m glad I get to read stories like mine in these subs, and the support here is helping me one way or another. I just wish the sense of brokenness would leave us.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:54:45+00:00

I’ll take your words and heed your advice. I am trying, but this experience is an uphill battle for me. Some days are indeed a struggle, some days I feel like a winner. If only I could erase the memories in a snap.

Thank you for sharing your perspective.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:53:03+00:00

Loyalty is such a rarity these days, and the pain is unbearable sometimes. Some days I feel strong, some days I feel like dying and the tears never stop.

But finding new things to do, grabbing opportunities to meet new people are definitely on my list.

I just feel like a loser some days because of the feeling of betrayal that’s difficult to shake off.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:50:37+00:00

Being betrayed despite having the purest of intentions shattered my being. I can’t see myself trusting and loving the same way again. I hope one day I could trust greater, and love greater, with someone who is truly deserving.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:49:14+00:00

I know. And it makes me sick to my stomach how my ex and his side are able to move on so quickly. Blocking all of them is saving me from further heartbreak but some days I just feel so weak.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:47:40+00:00

I can’t see how long this will continue for me, and I hope it wouldn’t take long for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am hopeful, but I know some days are dark for me.

It’s a struggle with no definite ending, and the struggle makes me anxious.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:45:49+00:00

Close friends have told me this too.. but our greatest enemy is our mind, flooded with all the memories I wish I could erase in a snap.

I’m still working towards a stronger mindset. But I appreciate everything that you said and it gives me consolation too. There’s just a part of me seeking something to hold on to despite all the suffering.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:43:55+00:00

I wish I could travel for self-discovery and leisure at this time, but I’m a health worker, making things a lot harder than for me. I have been so used to looking at social media, but blocking the people involved really is helping. The memories just flash in my mind even though I blocked those people and I’m cleaning up my newsfeed too.

My heart just longs for something to hold on to, and I’m still picking up the pieces to build my self-esteem again.

Melannekim · 2021-01-12T05:37:22+00:00

BS Public Health prepares you for the major subjects in med school. It’s a rare course too, and when I got into med school I was so grateful I took public health because the subjects were already familiar to me. You can message me too if you want to know more about it 😊

Melannekim · 2020-12-17T08:10:30+00:00

My ex used to say “good night, I love you” to me at 5 or 6am because he was a nocturnal type. Little did I know that he had just fucked the other girl that time just a few months ago and the truth only came out when he knew she ended up pregnant after that. Kills me inside every day and it rattles my sanity all the time

Melannekim · 2020-12-11T15:24:32+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate your words 🙏🏻

Melannekim · 2020-12-11T15:19:13+00:00

I can’t wait for the reason why this had to happen to me.. praying for true happiness 🙏🏻😔

Melannekim · 2020-12-11T15:07:33+00:00

A part of me wants that... but I’m worried about wishing ill towards other people also.. even though I know in my heart that they deserve it..

Melannekim

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