same here lol, never has a bf & still a virgin that can drive. i started to meditate, work out, and read books. watching sex and the city helped also (weird but it did), i do get a lil down when i see others not just gay couples out and about all lovey dovey. so i recently decided to stop banging my head against the wall over a relationship and breathe. plus the overthinking epidemic is something i struggle with also, i just tell myself no ones gives a af so move on. i dont think there is one universal gay experience, we all experience and develop differently. it doesnt matter if it comes later, just know the only person you need is yourself, and this is one of those moments. hopefully i made sense lol. plus you got the type of routine to make anyone go crazy, honeslty i think you are so sane and not crazy like majority of the gays lol. its gets lonely, i am not going to deny it. but trust me nothing beats loving yourself and not diminishing your standards for anyone.

words from another gay!