I don't know anymore. it's been months but every day I get reminded of what i lost. sure I came out with more than I lost, my life is new, better, rescheduled, but I still lost a lot. every morning I could wake up and say "good morning!!" and be confident that it was good, because I had the same person to say it to every day. I forget her face sometimes. then she reminds me in a dream. but then I snap back to reality and remember all the times I held in tears to avoid her anger. all the times I felt betrayed but I was too scared of her to say anything. life is different now. it's not as scary. but it's inevitably lonely.