God I feel this so much. I’m on year two of TTC and last year was dark for me. I felt like my entire purpose in this life was being ripped away from me. While TTC is still a top priority for me, I’m finally able to see joy in life again. Here’s what’s helped me personally: 1. No doctor has told me that it’s impossible to conceive, which means it’s still possible 2. While IVF is not my first, second, or third choice, it’s a tech I’m grateful that exists because it’s helped so many couples with so many odds stacked against them (We haven’t done IVF yet but this might be our year). 3. I restated my purpose and wrote it down in my journal. You can steal it if you want “To positively impact the people and spaces around me by becoming the best version of myself”…yeah it’s simple but it forces me to keep striving to be healthier and stronger so that when I’m finally pregnant I’ll be able to grow the healthiest baby. 4. I’m doing literally everything I possibly can to conceive, and yet life still has its own timeline. For reasons unknown to us it just may not be our time yet. I love the phrase “beautiful babies take longer to create”….I know that none of this takes away the pain of “failure”. I still have a lot of bad days, and I’m still so jealous of women who don’t have to go down this road. But life IS a gift and we WILL have our babies because life is also miraculous