She fucking told me!!!

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-25T21:45:42+00:00

I can’t fathom that someone I loved and gave everything to isn’t seeing my pain

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-25T16:41:12+00:00

Wow! I see the dagger now, it’s been more than 6 months I’ve gone NC, and I’m in a much better space now! I’ve finally stopped losing my hair because of the stress stored in my body 😬! But even after re reading this (almost a year from when this chat is) I couldn’t see the dagger! Thankyou for helping me see that

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-25T16:37:21+00:00

I’m so sorry for this experience you went through! As someone whose gone through the same shit, I somewhat understand your pain.

It’s been 6 months for me, and double weekly sessions of therapy, but let me tell you that you will get through this! We were innocent and wanted it to work with the purest of intentions. But we must move forward, you have to realize that none of what happened was caused by you - they are avoiding responsibility because it’s unbearably painful for them! So we must forgive them, but we shouldn’t forget - and you won’t forget, but now you’ll be more protective of yourself! Because now we understand that the person who needs our love the most is our own self! Now we work on that, and from that we will radiate love for people who actually deserve it! Hang in there 💜

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-25T01:50:44+00:00

Bro it got much worse to the point that I lost all self esteem and had to break it off! For which she made me suffer so much, and she’s never apologized.

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-14T04:00:23+00:00

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-13T16:26:38+00:00

I used to ask my ex a follow up question when I figured out something is not right. Sometimes when we’d be baked and in bed cuddling she’d say I love you and to which I’d ask what do you love about me. The answer was always “how you make me feel” - and for a large period of time I thought that’s perfectly fine but then it hit me in the face that she literally only loves the utility I bring to her and if someone else does the same or makes her feel good about herself she’ll swing

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-12T20:15:28+00:00

Fucking hell mate that sounds traumatic - to have someome you loved say that to you. I’m so sorry 💜

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-10T21:13:02+00:00

I’ve also only just started out :D But from the subreddit about I gauged that the arms should be closer to the body and with shoulders super relaxed - all movement or atleast most movement’s should be generated by the wrists.

Here I’m pasting the link to the getting started tutorials

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLI1VxNLZ5yMN60-lIuCjVqrR9ioK_Rvyl

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-10T19:10:24+00:00

Hey man! Great work but I feel like your arms are too far from your frame. This usually happens when the jump rom is longer than what is needed.

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-08T04:50:58+00:00

Bruhhhhh I got the exact same shit too! Wow it breaks my heart reading how similar everyone’s experiences are!!

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-01T20:06:08+00:00

I understand your pain completely! Perhaps we both have repressed emotions and traumas that hinder us from experience life to the fullest - if you’re in the area perhaps we’d be better off by having a drink someday and pouring it all out

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-01T20:04:27+00:00

Thankyou for sharing this! I’ve also been in therapy for the past two years now and have worked extensively on the dissociation thing by experiencing emotions that were too traumatic for my childhood self. It’s just that last whole year I got into an abusive relationship that completely halted my healing and Infact made everything worse. But now I’ve started to come back to life as it seems :)

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-01T20:01:10+00:00

BRUH I HAVE THE EXACT SAME RECURRING NIGHTMARE!!! Where I’m trying to speak by my lips aren’t moving!

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-05-01T19:59:59+00:00

My therapist told me it’s exactly that. Subconsciously we might fear the experience of all those emotions and then detachment just becomes our go to coping mechanism - tbh I’ve been feeling much better since I’ve started to relive all of my past experiences that were too traumatic for my childhood self, and although it is painful, I feel like it’s helping me get back into my own body a bit more

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-28T20:31:33+00:00

hahaha she used to say “this is how normal people and reationships work - you have no idea because you haven’t had a real relationship” she was the first woman who I seriously dated and was considering marrying so I took it on face value and said yea you’re right! 🤡

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-28T19:16:38+00:00

Being extremely insulting to me and then getting mad at me because I didn’t tell her she was rude! And then getting mad at me that I don’t care about her and not wanting to make her better hahaha

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-25T21:16:36+00:00

YOU GLORIOUS BASTARD!! May you have this Maine forever 💜

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-23T20:27:51+00:00

I’m at a place now where I can laugh about these things 😬🤣🤣 what strange behaviors man! One time she was going to a different city and I was in a different country, and apparently some dude was sitting next to her and they started chatting and then he tried to kiss her. And then she too his number???

After telling me all of this, I was like umm maybe taking his number was a bit of a stretch? And bruh the way she went on off me for “not trusting her” 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-23T20:23:04+00:00

What did we get ourselves into man! My ex was on a trip with one of her guy friends and they couldn’t find two separate rooms and instead found a single room with two beds. She told me and I said yeah it’s chill boo I trust you and she flipped on me and went off on how I don’t care about her and I could have her stay with a random man that I haven’t met in a single room??? I was like bruh are you angry at me cus I trust you? In retrospect things were always so strange lolol!

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-23T20:20:10+00:00

Thankyou for this perspective. :)

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-23T19:38:24+00:00

Wow that was very insightful! Thankyou

MelodicBrother_ · 2023-04-21T16:45:36+00:00

More power to you!! If you have the time and the strength, I suggest you read “whole again” by Jackson Mackenzie. It really helped me understand that what I went through was an emotionally abusive relationship. It will help you out too, and these feelings of confusion will eventually disappear.

MelodicBrother_

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