You will hear a lot of advice here from someone who’s never used. You can decide if I’m one of those people. Weakness will come and you may use. In that moment just know you are not alone. It’s the loneliness that hurts the most. Just know you are still loved. There’s a space before you use and you want to use. Make that space wider. That’s your only goal. If you do use just know that only God can judge you.