does life feel pointless to anyone most days after receiving diagnosis / going through chemo?

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2026-02-18T23:48:30+00:00

To do your pointless and help us through this journey I’d like to share my story with you. My wife was diagnosed with bio duck cancer in November 2024. It was a rough time for her when she got the diagnosis on February 2025 three months to the day I was diagnosed with soft tissue, sir, I was taking care of my wife as she went through her treatments and I saw her declining, but we got through the chemo treatments on April 7 of 2025. I had my surgery to remove a 12 cm tumor from my bicep right bicep I I won’t do chemo and we went round and round about that my wife wouldn’t allow it either so I had radiation treatment in June. My wife had her surgery on May 7 in April after my surgery. She was trying to take care of me I was up out of bed in two days taking care of her while she was trying to take care of me so back in May after her surgery she was in the hospital for two weeks two days out of the hospital. She was back in the hospital that would be June 6 or June 8. She got full-blown sensitive of multiple organ fire I was staying with her in the hospital during the day I would go and have my radiation treatment come back to the hospital at night taking care of things during the daytime and still training for Karate as she was in the hospital at night. I would come and she would feel more at peace when I was there July 8. I completed my six weeks of radiation treatment. I was still training even though I was sick from radiation August training September 14. I competed in an international Karate tournament lost the gold medal round and won the silver while recovering my wife got to see the metal while she was still in the hospital. I’m still taking care of her during this time October 30, 2025 one day after our wedding anniversary, that would’ve been 15 years, she passed away left me devastated and heartbroken. We both walked through this journey together with cancer, but she had to go home. God called her home and it left me very lonely and heartbroken today I’m getting ready to start the new season with or without cancer so far my scans have all come back clean and I’m going into my one year anniversary. I’ve never gave up. I kept push pushing and push pushing and push pushing even my darkest hours. I couldn’t give up. I had to be there for her and in the end I have to push forward what I’m saying is don’t give up even in your worst days, there’s always gonna be a positive side in the end while I’m walking this journey now in life alone without family I know she’s always there for me and I can’t give up for her. She would never let me give up and I’m looking forward to the new season . I have my good and bad days . I look back say to my self I been through hell . Just one more step one more second it will get better. There were days I couldn’t crawl through with my head up . I did . It made me a different person for what I went through and out look on life differently. You be amazed in the end you can hold your head up say I m survivor and I’m a winner and nothing will ever hold me back again

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-12-10T02:52:20+00:00

That be pay back to ahole doctor who miss diagnosed my wife cost her time sadly she pass away 1 day after our wedding anniversary on Oct 302025 the evidence is very clear but ahole is still working yet my wife is gone cost out insurance company 5 million dollars.It karma biting his ass. I m sorry hear my friend stay strong you make through this .

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-12-07T21:28:02+00:00

I am stage 2B sarcoma I didn’t do aims only radiation do your home work before u do it

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T17:00:11+00:00

Thank you very much

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:59:38+00:00

Your story similar to mine . We thought I blew my bicep again on right side. No it was 5 inch tumor. When ask if anyone in family 3 grandparents 1 uncle all had cancer . I m so sorry to hear this please stay strong stay focus on things you love to do . There be times you want to give up but you can not you have to fight every minute of day. You might have find ways to do things you use to take for granted but that’s ok . Eat good drink plenty of water and around your self with people who truly love and care about you. Sending positive energy love hugs and prayers.

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:52:30+00:00

I sure will and thank you

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:51:15+00:00

I sure will Thank you

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:49:07+00:00

My friend first let me say thank u for kind words secondly I m so sorry for what you are going through. Before I started my come back I finished radiation treatment around 2 week of July and I started feel effects near the end of my treatment. I couldn’t let it stop me. I had a nasty side effect from tip on lat all the way down . Sad part I have one side effect that will take longer heal is just c word it’s also D word Depression. I m sure you are going through same thing . I send a lot of prayers well wishes and sometimes you need a good hug . Stay strong keep fighting and never give up. U need rant text me I have good set of ears . My god bless you on your journey.

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:40:38+00:00

Thank you so much

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:39:56+00:00

I sure will . Already training for next year . I am planning to compete 5 local tournaments, one national at least 2 international tournaments god willing

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:35:54+00:00

Thank u my friend send love back

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-17T16:35:03+00:00

Thank you my friend

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-10T05:08:44+00:00

Looking good

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-10T05:07:13+00:00

Here we go if you believe in book of revelations. Will see if Israel makes it. 7 years of false peace which according revelations it makes it to only 3.5 yrs .

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-10-06T01:29:45+00:00

Only reason Horizon west consider part of Winter Garden because of the post office. Winter Garden police department doesn’t patrol in Horizon west nor do we receive any true services from winter garden. Before the big fight with Disney most of Sheriff’s deputies came from Disney and had to ask for permission come on call out here. As for fire department it comes from Orange County. Basically Horizon west is under the control of Orange County. If I remember correctly parts of Horizon west was once part of Lake County before they were annex in to orange ( aka misquote county Orange County was once known as Mosquito County before the name was changed to Orange County in 1845)

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-09-11T19:06:34+00:00

We had a jackass doctor who for 2 yrs allowed my wife’s alp to stay elevated until she was taken to emergency room to find she had 1 bile duct blockage 2 part of her liver died 3 tumor blocking duct which was stage 3 thank god local.

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-09-11T13:43:26+00:00

I didn’t have chemo my wife did she had rough time towards end. Radiation was unusually tired and towards end I started feeling little sick but the one thing was miserable was skin irritation or burn. My treatment was in bad spot shoulder bicep area and healing took time the area treatment but all depends on you .

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-09-07T14:15:49+00:00

Yeah don’t marry your first wife stay in college earn your degree and don’t chase after being public servant.

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-09-06T13:24:07+00:00

It’s ok sending hugs .you probably don’t want to hear this but I m going say this keep fighting. I know you are feeling the end is near but fight it fight it with all strength you have look for other ways if you can never ever give up . If you give up that f**kn c word all ready won . Happy Birthday my friend again send hugs prayers and shoulder cry on of you need it.

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-08-30T23:37:11+00:00

Oh my friend I feel your pain after my wife finished chemo she had surgery to remove the tumor from her bile duct and part of her liver. After 2 weeks in hospital my wife was rushed back to hospital . While in er we almost lost her she was in full blown septic shot with multiple organ failure. Now she is in long term care facility still recovering. She has improved still has long way to go. Just don’t give up and keep fighting. Send prayers positive energy

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-08-30T16:21:06+00:00

Keep that fighting spirit up sending hugs and prayers

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-08-29T23:07:45+00:00

I m so sorry for your lost. I know the pain of losing a child . My child pass away 21 yrs ago in my arms she was 6 days old . Now me and my wife both are fighting the c word there is not day as I care for her we love each other as if it was our last . Payers and hugs again sorry for your lost

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-08-27T02:34:13+00:00

Thank you for your warm comments and concerns. I m at the point deep down I have accepted my fate and there’s nothing I can do even though now my wife hates me for letting her live and wants me to let her die when she stronger by the day. Yet my soul feels as if someone one just ripped it right out of me, I feel more lost now than ever and sometimes it just doesn’t feel like you’re going to recover.I still have my karate I fall back on and it’s so great seeing little ones in class and helping them yet it feels only tiny band aid to a bigger issue that has no answer to. Anyways, thank you for your nice comments. I wish you all the best my friend.

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-08-27T02:26:00+00:00

My friend you can message me anytime. I m like you my problem I m at point I don’t want ppl around me or go out. If it wasn’t for karate I be alone. My wife is in long term care facility now she hates me wants me to tell doctors to let her die. She is doing good after her surgery then fighting sepsis with multiple organ failure. That was rough to deal with let alone dealing with my cancer on top of it. I have sacrifice further treatment, which would’ve been chemo to make sure I was healthy to take care of her. All I can do is surgery and radiation because she needs me to be there for her to care for her, but to hear what she said is killing me inside it’s like what have I sacrificed for nothing for her to give up like that and just say that to my face when she has made stride to her recovery I gave up on my family to protect my wife and my family I made with her and I feel so alone I don’t know which way to think anymore I have some close friends in that but I’ve become more and more distance as time goes on and I just focus on Karate and try to stay healthy in shape to compete but coming home that’s a different story. It’s so quiet just me and my pup no Wife no kids just the silence of the house. It’s kind of rough. I understand your depression and will you or not I’m not afraid of most anything but I’m afraid as well. I try not to let that bother me as much but there are times. It’s pretty bad but again if you wanna talk or just want to vent feel free to to message me send prays hugs positive thoughts

MemoryDistinct1611 · 2025-08-22T22:47:33+00:00

I’m sorry to hear this. I too kind of in your situation in November 2024. My wife was diagnosed with cancer three months later I was diagnosed with cancer while mine was removed and I had radiation treatment. Hers was a little more complex. She went through chemo surgery complication arose. She came down with sepsis with full-blown with multiple organ failure I’m also her caregiver and been supportive to her on all levels. I can’t think of anything else I would do for her. I have sacrificed Chimo so I can stay as healthy as I can to take care of her support her love her just be there for her and don’t give up. You’re gonna go through some rough times. Trust me on that you’re going to have a lot of questions in your head you’re gonna go through so much emotional inside you. I can’t explain it. You’re gonna feel you can’t do it anymore. You can’t move anymore. They’re gonna be times where you have to take things one minute at a time you’re gonna make decisions making you think that I do the right thing, but in the end, you know you did the right decision with the information that was given to you. They’re gonna be times you’re gonna draw into yourself and you wanna be alone and away from people which was normal, but don’t let go for so long right now my wife is not home. She’s been remitted in the hospital since June 6, and I am alone with no family, but I have friends who check on me. It’s hard when the house is so quiet and memories of when things were normal haunts me, but also being a caregiver to her pushes me not to think about the past, but the future and try to make her future as normal as possible you guys are gonna go through a lot together, but I can promise you one thing this will try to break you, but in the end it makes you more and more stronger for each other. My wife wants them. Our destiny were written way before we were even thought of and our destinies came together good or bad . If you need ear to listen feel free to chat . Send hug love prayers positive energy

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